I’m become sick of all this. I can’t go on living this way. My brother has started to hit me. It’s not that bad at the moment, the occasional punches and kicks. My parents do nothing about it except laugh. I get made to do everything around the house and it’s becoming all to much for me. I don’t feel like their my parents, more like I work for them.
I don’t have a social life anymore. I’m wondering is I still have friends. The friend I think I still have doesn’t even talk to me anymore. When we do talk it’s a few words and then I say I have to go just so there is no awkwardness between us. I hate my life. I miss me friends, it was a way to escape being at home and feeling free to do what I want with no one to boss me around.
The only way I am coping with this is to cut myself. I know I shouldn’t but if I don’t I wouldn’t cope. My parents know I have tried to kill myself many times before and they still treat me like this. The first time I tried to kill myself, my family were nice to me for a week and then went back to their same old ways. The times after that they done the same.
I would do anything to get out of this house. It’s literally killing me to live here. I want to kill myself but I try to think of good times I’ve had and that makes me happy. I just can’t take this any more.
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can you talk to a school counselor or someone you trust? i think they’d really be able to help you. or maybe you can talk to your parents about how you really feel and see if you can get them to realize that you’re serious and really struggling. im so sorry that you have to go through so much. but life is worth living, i promise! even though you’re probably sick of hearing this, life will get better! im not sure how old you are, but as soon as you leave the house things can and will get better, if not sooner. so how about you set a goal to make it til then..
for the cutting, i would suggest picking something else up such as writing. i know that cutting can’t be replaced with anything, but you can try (at least once!) to write things down instead of self-harming.
there are always people that care about you, whether or not you realize it! If you ever ever need to talk, just submit a post, yahoo answers is great too!, and you can always call 1800SUICIDE. It can really help you! My best wishes!
I speak to people I trust but they don’t seem to be able to offer advice. When I tried to kill myself the first time, my mum said I need to talk to her about how I feel but she just tells me to leave it and we’ll talk about it soon. We don’t.
I love photography, music and art but every time I try to take some time to do them my family want me to do things for them. I will try to write down how I feel everyday, thanks for suggesting that.