Suicide(v)-The deliberate taking of ones own life.Â
I sit in the shadows hoping for someone to notice me. Hoping that someone will see the girl whose world spins all too fast. My so called best friends watch me and see the darkness that haunts me, they sit back as i crawl deeper into my shell. To them it is a joke, it is hilarious to them how often i fall apart. They see my bitterness as a mere form of entertainment.Â
I laugh along as if my darkness is a choice as if i choose this hate, this heart wrenching pain, i pretend that its all a part of who i want to be, when in reality i wish i could be them. I wish i could laugh, and mean it. I wish i could become the girls everyone envies but i am just the sad friend that follows them around.Â
I am the silence in the halls, the screams in the wind, the whispers in the night.