Another Saturday is here and again I’m sat at this damn computer thinking too much…
One thing that popped into my head with the whole suicide thing is this whole idea of life being a test…If suicide counts as you failing this “test” and when you die your brought before some god or being or whatever what would you say…I personally think I’d try to rip it’s damn head off lol…anything that would make you live your life in pain or depression and then accuse you of failing because you decided you didn’t want to deal with it anymore…well it’s certainly not a god as we know it…
But anyway that’s what I was thinking about now feeling lonely as per usual and at the point where I’m sick of it when you get to the point where you really are dragging yourself through each day you begin to ask why the hell am I letting myself continue to suffer like this? seems so unnecessary…but I dunno.
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Interesting thought… about being a test, that is. I have had a few people tell me that i was being tested. TESTED for what? By whom? We’ve been told that God can see our hearts and minds and knows what kind of persons we are. If that is true why does he have to test us?
Or is it tested by someone else? Again Why? I think i understand your frustration. I search for answers and find virtually none. And yes it sure seems unnecessary.