Its been 2 years with no job, no friends, no money. I’m getting evicted tomorrow out of my apartment. The hospital bills of this great nation are stacking higher and higher. I just dont want to deal with it no more. And after I read http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/ essay of persuasion to stay alive it just depressed me more. Reading that crap only wants me to put this gun up to my head and squeeze the trigger. I NEED HELP! You got 5 min 5:21 EST 8/14/2010
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Life is in the details.
Material possession means nothing. Tomorrow, get up and leave. I don’t mean leave this earth, I mean leave your life. Just leave. Pack a rucksack. Get in your car. Get on a train. On a plane. On a bus. And go
and when you get somewhere, stop. Listen. Look.
Settle.
If not, keep going.
You are you. This is your shot. Materials are nothing. This world is your playground.g
Clevermental… its ok saying that but money doesnt grow on trees and id love to start my life over, but what with!!!! pack up and leave… ??? that costs money. can u think of a slightly better alternative, cos im feeling about as positive as this person right now, and everything i read is depressing me more too!!! x
Packing up and leaving costs nothing. I’m not talking about putting your stuff into boxes, calling in a removal company, going to somewhere where you wanted to live, finding somewhere to live, and then renting/buying. I’m talking about just going. Hitchhiking, leaving, with nothing but what you have on your back. Go somewhere, work on a farm, work in a mall, become a mechanic, become a hairdresser, become a fisherman, try out for the police force, become a firefighter. do something.
Change everything.
Ijay, I hear you! From all I can understand from clevermetals response is that if you become a traveler (gypsy/homeless/bum) you will find some happiness, I doubt there is any happiness in that and I suspect you feel that too. It’s another case of someone trying to help when they actually are doing more harm than good. I am not attacking him and it’s nice he has some wanting to help someone so low, but however you look at it, he has no idea of how your feeling so he shouldn’t try. Just because people care (which is nice) think that means they should intervene.
I can’t talk you out of it, i feel the same. But your problems are material, not that that makes it any easier, BUT your life can be saved if these probelms could be solved. I certainly can’t solve them for you, I can’t give you job or money or a new apartment, but maybe try asking people who can? It seems a shame to kill yourself over things and matters, that MAYBE someone could help you with?