well I though I would share this last
Well as I seem to have pissed so many of the “regulars” off I thought I’d share this before I go.
In response to the earlier splinter comment I was merely saying that there are very many sick people who pray on vulnerable folks such as on here. “grooming” them – oh your my saviour from killing myself…in order to ultimately gain control. Like it or not, either way I don’t care as I owe nobody here anything. This isn’t facebook. It is so interesting that a bunch of complete strangers to one another, who claim to have nothing to give anyone or live for jump to the defence of someone they have never met (nor are likely to) & post quite rude & bullying comments. Maybe your able to give someone something or your just not really that sad or the world is as bad as you think….if you consider also your comments, some just plain ignorant, are aimed at someone who actually WILL be dead by the time most of you read this.
I knew such people like the ones i was pointing out exist as I fell pray to 2 predators between the ages of 8-12yrs old. Having gone through the sexual/ physical & emotional abuse at the hands of these creatures I have a bit of insight so pardon me to hell & back if I don’t like it when someone claims to have pretended to be one, with the obvious exception of Police officers…
When you have been subject to the kind of torture & depravity that I was, your view of the world gets kind of jaded. I was able to block out this until very recently when it all came out, resulting in me losing everything I had worked for my entire adult life. My family disowning me, my partner leaving me, losing my pet & home in the process. My career in the military medical services, gone.
So before ANYONE dares judge me for what I said, ask yourself why are you questioning the motives of someone who has nothing to live for? Answers – unlikely. If Splinter is half the man described, I’ll buy him a beer on the other side. Comments such as, I’m glad he might not see what I had written…really? Why? Would he want to kill himself more?! You have the tenacity to say to me to think before typing.
I came to this site seeking a place to leave some kind of lasting note, yet all I have come across are people still like in the “real world” sticking their noses in & just really talking the talk.
No more talking, no more pain, no more anything.
Per Mare Per Terram, see you soon brothers
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Hey. I didn’t attack you, I asked you why you had read into splinters post and come up with the theory that he could be a predator, and I wanted you to know that he wasn’t, I am entitled to do that for myself, for others that like him and for him himself, whether he’s dead or not makes no difference.
Same as other people are entitled to get upset also at your comments. I didn’t read all of them and I’m sure there was some insulting ones there too, that’s just the nature of mankind. In some incidences, a person can’t do right for doing wrong; I feel strongly about splinter and can’t help reacting to what you said, but I don’t feel I personally insulted you (even though I myself felt insulted by your post).
I appreciate what you say in this post and I am sorry for what you have been through, I can understand you trying to warn others of the same thing happening to them, I did say that in my post. I was just trying to also say that it is not always a good thing to project your own experiences and opinion of the world onto other, who are also in a bad way. Of course this is a suicide site like you said and a public forum, but at the same time, one must be as careful as possible to not make matters worse for anyone else here. I was worried with you saying what you said because there are people on here who offer contact to those that are in need and your words could make those vulnerable people wary of accepting help.
You’re talking here of people attacking you, someone that is suicidal, but you’re last response on that post was pretty awful too. Sometimes, people are in such a bad place within themselves that they can’t see the wood for the trees.
You are not a bad person, I doubt anyone is bad on here, we’re just a big bunch of very sad, tired and angry people but I doubt anyone’s intentions are bad. If you are still alive to read this, I want you to know that I don’t think of you as having ‘pissed me off’ and I hope you are okay. Please don’t see this site as a battle ground, it is not, but it IS only human at the end of the day. I would like to see you back on here and I would like to chat to you if ever you want to.
Oh just so you know, you made a comment about if people have been on here for months then they shouldn’t as they should just leave their suicide note and sod off 🙂 I was one of those people who came on to leave a suicide note and sod off but I haven’t done it yet. I’m not saying I wont do it, I feel very sure that I will, but right now I am not, I am still alive. Not every person who is suicidal has to do it on a certain date, or at all for that matter. Same with you, please don’t be too stubborn to respond to me if you are still alive, no-one is here to judge anyone. Reactions to provocative posts have to be expected.
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G1974:
I’m not certain as to if you are alive or not at this very moment. However, forgive me please for not coming at your defense. I saw the marvellous post that Pink404 wrote for splinter (as I had some of the same positive opinions of him to a CERTAIN extent). Even so, I saw the way most of the people there commented and attacked and bullied you. I knew that this was going to come to this. My thing is, if someone is already on a suicide site, seeking, asking, begging for help, despite some of the negative comments they may make, you cannot further push them over the edge. Its amazing how some people bash us (those who are trying to give some sort of enlightment), but yet they go and attack someone that is vulnerable. KUDOS to you guys!
In no way am I trying to attack anyone, but i’m just saying that you cannot automatically bully someone on a ‘suicide site’ and expect it to be okay in the end. We all are entitled to our opinions but in all honesty, some of you can be cruel in your remarks. But yet again to each his own. All I am saying is that at some point, we must agree to disagree and not offend anyone for stating their opinions.
Even so, G1974, in case you are still alive, forgive me for not coming at your defense. I too may get bashed for this post!
May peace be with you all:)
P.S. Pink404: Thanks for your comment above:) You truly are a doll:)
Hey buddy, I was one of the ‘regulars’ who attacked you, I’m sorry. I saw your post as an attack itself and I reacted. I too am in a bad way and so am not always acting in everyone’s best interest (including my own). I really hope you haven’t done it yet, I can’t talk you out of it as I feel the same and might end up putting my won goodbye on here very soon. I didn’t mean you any harm, I would like to offer friendship if you’re still around.
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I guess i know what it’s like to have made up your mind.. but i hope you havn’t. Like stated earlier some people react before thinking… and i would hope you wouldn’t take it to heart so much.
In an earlier post i stated that i am the type to “do as i say, not as i do”. I hope you havn’t done anything to harm yourself.. There is always some hope. A gut feeling that what you’re thinking isn’t right..
I may not be here for years to come but i can only hope i help someone when i couldn’t help myself..