If  you ARE READING THIS THANK YOU. MY CAPS LOCK IS STUCK AND I AM WRITING THIS ON MY IPOD IF YOU WERE WONDERING. IM 13 AS WELL. I HAVE BEEN MOVED ACROSS THE COUNRTY AWAY FROM EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING I LOVE. I WAS SENSITIVE IN THE FIRST PLACE AND ALREADY GOIN THROUGH THINGS THIS LED ME TO DEPRESSION, SUICIDAL DEPRESSION. I HAVE A LOT MORE GOING ON THEN I CAN SAY, ONE THING IS I HAVE A VERY BAD CASE OF EPILEPSY AND TODAY I COULDN’T MOVE. THE ONLY PEOPLE WHO KNOW ABOUT MY SUICIDAL THOUGHTS ARE MY BROTHER AND MY TWO BEST FRIENDS ONLY MY BROTHER KNOWS THAT I AM CUTTING MYSELF  BUT MY FRIENDS WILL SOON KNOW. I NEED HELP BUT I CANTCAN’T GET IT CUZ I CANTCAN’T TELL MY MOTHER AND WHEN I TRY SHE GOES IN DENIAL SAYING IMI’M NOT DEPRESSED  MAYBE IF I SHOW HER THE CUTS SHE WILL BELIEVE ME. I AM PLANNING ON HAVING A FAMILY TALK WITH EVERYBODY EXPLAINING WHATS GOING ON. AND EXPLAINING THAT I NEED HELP, I HAVE BEEN HAVING THESE THOUGHTS SINCE THE BEGINNING OF JULY, AND MORE IT ALL STARTED IN GR.2 . I MAY SEEM DRAMATIC AND I MAY SEEM TO YOUNG BUT YOU DONT KNOW WHAT IVE GONE THROUGH
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Well, the good thing is that your seeking help or thinking of it NOW when I was 13 I thought my depression was over dramatic and silly. Take it from me never doupt the severity of your pain and seek help asap if your slipping. Best of wishes 🙂
As a mother myself- moms often go into denial immediately because we hate the fact that our children hurt. Most of the time it is automatic, but can be snapped out of when the presentation and facts are there. Show her your pain- talk with her – it will be hard at first- but she needs to know.
I think its very brave of you to be open to your family about your feelings at such a young age. I wasn’t able to do that when I was your age. I would explain to your mom why you are upset and what you’re going through, that way she can find a way to help you. At first she might be hesitant and have a hard time accepting it, but if you talk to her about it more, she’ll probably understand.
I’m 13 too and though my parents found out the hard way I never got help. Tell your parents that you want serious help an that they shouldn’t ignore this. You are really brave to be able to talk to your family like this. I still can’t. Good luck.
When I was 13, I was too scared to tell anyone how I was feeling. Please try to tell your mom. I’m pretty sure she will try to minimize how you are feeling at first cos that’s how my parents reacted. But once she realizes you really are feeling bad, she will take it seriously because she loves you. Any denial up til now is only because she cares for you so much. Things can get better – I promise. I’m 29 now and very happy. Take care. Email me if you like. aoifekeane@gmail.com
I couldn’t explain it to my family either. I got help from the hospital instead. They seemed to better understand and there was a person who helped me explain things to my mom, because she just couldn’t “get it”.
When you feel this way, it seems like no one else thinks that way or understands. But there are people who can help – you just have to find them. I didn’t want to find them, though. I ended up at the hospital – they locked me up until I was well enough to get out and be on my own again. I was really mad at them at first, but now I think it was a good thing. I’m in a much better space and I think much clearer.
I don’t know if you have access to any services in your area. Even if you can find a suicide hotline and talk to somebody – that would be helpful. You are worthwhile – don’t believe the lie that you’re not. You are somebody. You deserve to live. Sometimes you just have to fight for it even when you don’t believe there’s anything worth fighting for.
I hope you can find help. No one should have to feel that way. I didn’t think I could ever feel better, but I do. So can you 🙂