27 years old male here from Canada. I have been diagnosed a severe depression in mid-August and the doc prescribed me Venlafaxine (Effexor). I was also forced out of work and forced back into my family, in my hometown.
The only thing this drug seems to do is to suppress my emotions. It does not have any effect on my suicidal thoughts.
I want to end with life so badly that I intend to buy myself a rope as soon as possible so I can execute the good suicide plan I created.
The only major problem I face is that I’m under supervision 24/7. I’m supposed to go back see the doc on Sept. 3 and stay in my work town for few days. I thought it would be a good moment to act but now a friend of mine has volunteered to stay with me all the time.
People do not trust me anymore. I’m like a fucking prisoner.
This is so frustrating.
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Wow so you just give up have you thought about it for a while since the consequence of the biggest mistake to end ur life what will happen after that but yeah can u tell me what triggered ur depression
These suicidal thoughts are your true feelings screaming back at you, they are not something to be ‘suppressed’. This is you telling yourself that something is very wrong with reality here. You need to sit and reflect upon them and figure out why you feel that way.
RogueShadow, I have been depressed for about one year and a half, but lately it has become worst and some coworkers got worried and forced me to see a doctor.
I have been lonely for a very very long time, and this is not gonna change. My two options are basically to continue living unhappy or die.
Any luck?
Hi CrazyLoser,I’ve been on anti-D’s before and they didn’t help a bit, felt like my head was stuffed with cotton wool and made me like a zombie. I’m not suggesting you stop taking them but can you get prescribed something else?24/7 supervision sounds like you have people that care about you though? Why do you feel so lonely?