27 years old male here from Canada. I have been diagnosed a severe depression in mid-August and the doc prescribed me Venlafaxine (Effexor). I was also forced out of work and forced back into my family, in my hometown.
The only thing this drug seems to do is to suppress my emotions. It does not have any effect on my suicidal thoughts.
I want to end with life so badly that I intend to buy myself a rope as soon as possible so I can execute the good suicide plan I created.
The only major problem I face is that I’m under supervision 24/7. I’m supposed to go back see the doc on Sept. 3 and stay in my work town for few days. I thought it would be a good moment to act but now a friend of mine has volunteered to stay with me all the time.
People do not trust me anymore. I’m like a fucking prisoner.
This is so frustrating.