There are two things I hope and I wish to say, and share, with all my deepest heart and sincerity to all of you here:
First, is that I’m a musician/composer,..
and after finding this website (about last week) accidentally, and then reading all the posts & comments, and mostly they’re just so strikingly similar, in such a honest, very sincere, real,..and even beautiful ways,..I have thus vow and swear today, that I will do my BEST, using my whatever utmost talents & passion in Music,…to create and compose a song, specially dedicated to all of you here.
Please give me around one month, at the very least, to put the FIRST sample to the Internet,..so each of you can listen to the song.
This is truly will be my special gift to all of you here.
As mentioned beautifully by Don Besig in his song composition “As long as I have Music”:
“When the world seems for beyond me,
and I have no place to go.
When my life seems cold and empty,
and I feel I’m all alone.
Then a song that I remember
helpas to ease my troubled mind,
and I find the strength within me
to reach out just one more time.
For as long as I have music,
as long as there’s a song for me to sing,
I can find my may, I can see a brighter day.
The music in my life will set my spirit free.”
And like I said in my recent thread about finding Hope,
I can truly attest that when I’m all alone & feeling dark, depressed, it is “Music” that often becomes my best friend, source of comfort, and such a ‘mysterious’ existence that really helped me so much. I can attest to this,..and perhaps some or many of you here can also relate, hopefully.
I have actually made some music compositions, that I feel so grateful that many people have found ’em to be a source of comfort, and even ‘heals’ wounded heart & soul..
For those of you who, in the mean time, want to listen to some of my music, please, I warmly welcome all of you here: http://www.myspace.com/nikiwonotomusic
and my Youtube channel: http://www.youtube.com/nikiwonoto
I can’t have any other better wishes at this moment, other than I sincerely hope you can somewhat, somehow felt strengthened, touched, inspired, or even healed, after listening to some of my music. This is my first ‘special gift’ to all of you here in this website.
Second is, I really want to ‘connect’ all the treads here, to discover the ‘unknown’, that hopefully would perhaps enlighten all of us here more, and even for the next newcomers or generations! I have even made a comment here: http://suicideproject.org/2010/08/suicide-group/Â to enthusiastically agree about creating a ‘join group’ mailing list, for all of us here whom I can see share -quite surprisingly!- many similar treads, characters, and personality here.
And also, I just hope you would kindly take some time to fill this test:
http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes2.asp (shorter ver)
http://www.mypersonality.info/personality-types/Â Â Â Â (longer, detailed ver)
This is a Personality-Types test called Myers Briggs (or abbreviated MBTI),
and to be very honest, ever since I took this test about 10 years ago, and got the result (I’m an INFP, of all 16 Types) as described in-details here:
http://www.mypersonality.info/personality-types/infp/
I’ve somehow felt that I’ve *known* myself much much better,…and my Life has never been the same. I never asked, and will never push you to believe in ANYthing,..that’s why I sincerely and truthfully want YOU yourself to try this test first (for those of you who still don’t know),…because the knowledge would definitely NOT hurt, even perhaps it will be a ‘gift’ , like I said previously.
and there are many forums on the internet, like this one: http://personalitycafe.com/infp-forum-idealists/ , that have *connected* like-minded individuals, and I’m really grateful for that!
Perhaps, a sense of belongingness, support, and love is all each of you really need,..to be able to continue to keep existing & living in this earthly existence,..until you eventually come to another ‘plane’ of Truth (ie: dying).
So these are my two ‘special’ gifts…only for you all, wonderful good sincere people and souls that I give my utmost respect the most…
How I really really wish I could meet with all of you in one place,..then maybe Life wouldn’t be so ‘bad’ after all, and perhaps might even lead to many other surprising unexpected things.
But surely I’ll keep my fingers crossed!
Finding this website alone has been really a good ‘unexpected/surprising’ start for me, and I do really mean it.
Thank you.
2 comments
I’m glad you find comfort in music. Maybe I’m just really different or messed up, but I find that my mind latches on to songs that are more “negative” in thought. Like Simple Plan’s song Untitled (How Could This Happen to Me?), or Green Day’s song Boulevard of Broken Dreams, or even Soul Asylum’s song Runaway Train.
For me, those lyrics seem to be a big hang-up, playing themselves over and over again in my mind, tormenting me by their truth, and not letting me escape. But I have found other songs that are comforting. They just don’t seem to stand out when I need them most.
It’s cool how you mentioned your personality type. I was wondering just yesterday if maybe there was a connection between us and our personality. You are an INFP. I am an ISFP. That’s three dimensions that are the same. Could there be a connection? I’d be interested in knowing what everyone else is. Maybe there’s a reason why many of us here feel similarly – maybe it has to do with our personality and the way we perceive the world? I’m curious.
Niki:
Thank you so much for your compositions, your music and your talent. We here on this site could always use a cheering up or a pick me up. Music is a way for us to express the way we feel. They tend to have the right words needed sometimes to express how we feel when sometimes we can’t even understand. But again, thanks a whole lot. I hope that your music truly uplift the spirits here on this site and become a blessing to all that here it. Keep doing what you are doing. May peace be with you:)