I don’t think you understand, my dear. I totally fell in love with you. I know, I sound creepy as heck. But, it was so real for me. I fell in love. That’s something I’ve never done before, something I didn’t think possible for me. You opened new doors for me. You showed me that happiness could be so real.
Because you made me the happiest that I’ve ever been, I fell in love. I know, I know. I definately didn’t show it, and that was on purpose. (Now I see that was a bad idea.) I wouldn’t dare let you know how much I truly cared about, not just us, but you. I couldn’t let you even think about the fact that I really did trust you with every single part of me. Know why? Because I was terrified that you’d use that to your selfish advantage. But, now that I ponder and look back, I know you would never, ever do that. All you ever did was care for me, and you just wanted to let me see you do it. But, I was scared. You can see why.
So, that’s why I picked all of those constant fights. I wanted to see if you’d really stay like you always swore to me you would. (HA!) It was me unconciously testing how reliable you were. And, at the time, you always passed. And, that suprised me, dear. Why, or how could someone stay with someone who bitched and complained that long? Because you were honest in the first place and meant what you told me: I like you a lot.
Why on earth would someone like me?! Out of all people! I told myself that it was just for sex. But, you never wanted it, so that answer was eliminated. What now? I couldn’t find any other reason. Until I thought of the reasons why I liked you. Skip the average stuff like your charm, sense of humor, and adorable looks. There was more. You teased me, you have a short attention span, you can be annoying with all of your random calls and texts, you show up unannounced, and you have the wildest mood swings. Why would I love all of that about you? The same reason why you likeD all of my flaws. They’re all a part of you, and I wanted all of you. You came with the good and the bad. I was completely content with that.
So, I guess you now see everything, my dear. These are all the things I was too scared to let you know.
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That was beautiful.
i wish someone said that about me 🙂
I wish I knew who this was all between O.o I want to try and get them back together, this is very… Very… Touching… Good luck to whoever you are and good luck in getting back whoever you love. <3 Be strong
If someone said this to me, I would marry him/her right there. You should tell this person how you feel.
Rabbit hole for the rabbit.
Come out !
See the world.
Liberate yourself.
The love immense in your heart already proven your power capable enough to melt the ice.
Don’t try to possess.
It’s only you yourself to possess with in the end.
Obsession if being.
But liberation to act where your true heart feels.
Regrets left with not trying.
It’s all trials and errors.
Regrets not to take, but to give yourself a chance.
Explore the unknown.
Satisfy yourself to fly high.
What’s truly yours is you.
You don’t live for others as the world tries to teach.
It’s you that matters but with unconditional love in mind.
When time to chance, you take.
When time to leave, you leave.
It’s life !
You are something as a soul in the universe to learn the nothingness of material here in this world.
The material of this world is undestroyable as a ground for the lost souls to learn.
It is the thought or act of destroying should be past, then can really withhold the unconditional-love to practice.
The stage that follows will be no more reincarnation to this world.
That will be the stage we reach we call heaven.
That’s the final frontier of a soul at ease to travel we call God.