first,excuse me my english is not tht good…i came to the US from a southamerican country,6 months after i got here i meet n started living with this amazing girl,she treated me like a king,she love me like no one before n i was an idiot,i was in love with her,and i show it to her during the first 2 years,even though from the beginning i wasnt all tht caring to her…i just lost her 8 months ago,after 6 years together…i miss her so much,i miss her voice,her smile,how silly she can be…i dont even know where she is anymore,ive try to find her just to say im sorry one more time n to hear her voice,im not even asking for her to return with me,cuz really i dont want to hurt her anymore,i wanna let her know tht everytime i did make her cry,was the worst moment in my miserable life,i cant believe or understand how i was so stupid!!!…plus my visa is gone so im a ilegal in this country now,i cant keep a job for tht reason,cuz my ss is not good anymore…and now tht i dont even have her with me,im just tired…i cant and i dont want to go back to my country,never liked anyways and i have nothing to do or look for over there…so,im just too tired to keep fighting here,when i miss her this much…i dont have a home ,a real home anymore…if i havent kill myself yet,is just cuz tht means i will hove no chance to see her one more time…sorry angie…
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I’m sorry that you lost her, that must be terrible. If you do find her, are you going to try to ever work things out with her again? By reading your post, it sounds like you really care about her and love her. I’m not sure what the policy is on become a legal citizen, or what the rules are about that, but perhaps you should look into finding a job that is under the table until you get your citizenship legalized? That way there won’t be any chances of you having to go back to your old country. Did you try searching for her on online sites? to see where she is at? maybe contacting her relatives or friends might help, if you have any of their numbers? It sounds like you really do love her though, I wish you the best of luck of getting to see her again.
This will be real simple kinda harsh but real simple.
You love her don’t ya?
Than really I’m sorry but..WTF ARE YOU DOING?!
You love her child! So go find her! Keep fighting never give up. Because if you love her this much, than maybe just maybe she does too. That maybe just maybe she misses you too. LOOK FOR HER MAN!