Hi everyone, today is my last day and this is my goodbye. It’s funny because for the past few years I have lived in some kind of turmoil, some conflict within myself. Half of me wanting to live, to find joy in life, to be able to trust another and trust in life itself, whilst the other half finds the very notion of all that ridiculous. I have never known which one of those sides of me to trust. The past few weeks I have really dug deep and explored all my feelings and listened to other feelings on here too. I concluded that I want to die, and I know that this time I am right because I actually feel a beautiful sense of peace. I know the act itself is daunting, but life and my living future is also daunting.Â
I hope you all find peace too in whatever you chose.