please please please please give me the strength to end it. I am stopped by this fear of what will happen when I’m dying, will I suffer, will I see a devil and all that bullcrap that this sick and twisted world has fed me all my life. Please God I’m begging you to give me the strength to do this tonight, I cannot bear the weight of another day. I am praying through the internet in the hope that it reaches you and I draw some strength. I’m on my knees in horrific pain and torment, begging to be released from this hell. Please have mercy on me.