I came on here to say goodbye after a few weeks of listening in and sometimes joining in on some threads. I’m surprised that there seems to be quite a few people that have chosen today also, must be some cosmic logic!Â
Well yeah, I have been trying to find some meaning in the last few weeks, in the end I have come to the conclusion that for me, there is no meaning that I want from this life. I have delved deep into the purpose of life, not just my own, but by reading and researching online, and observing others on here too. I am intelligent and 29, so not a ‘troubled teenager’ not that in my opinion, age makes any difference, and I chose death over anything that this corrupt, lost and insane world has to offer me. I do not want the ‘golden handshake’ of life.Â
I’m doing it tonight and it cannot fail. I’m not scared, a little nervous maybe, but I feel very clear headed and optimistic.
Bye everyone.
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I am only a teenager, and I know I have a long life ahead of me, but.. I don’t want it. It’s my choice. I’m not a ‘troubled teenager trying to find herself’. I’m just Angelyn. I do not care for this life – I don’t know why I’m here. I have no purpose. Life has no meaning. Nobody cares. So, why go on if that’s all I gotta look forward to in my future? I have planned my future. I know that I want to go to college and study psychology. But, who says I’ll succeed? If I fail, I gotta live with that reminder. Better to just save my disappointment now
Smile Kid; I have no hope to give you or any motivational speech to tell you to try to ‘succeed’ as you are wanting. I’m afraid I find most of mankind vile and so any want to ‘succeed’ in this world, to me, seems insane.
@ChrisPohl: you don’t have to succeed in the way this fucked-up world works.
You can always *choose* to, firstly, create your OWN meaning of what ‘success’ truly really mean for you. and secondly, you can define and then *create* ur own success.
and who knows, your own unique creation of ‘success’ might truly be role model for others & future generations.
It’s also what I’m planning to do.
screw what mainstream and some ‘vile’ people said about what ‘success’ is.
it’s really relative. and know that you DON’T have to follow their criteria.
You are YOU. not THEM!
Some of the very inspiring & great people that we’re so fond in remembering thorought human’s history have been those people who DEFIED the ‘mainstream’ conception of success, and go create their OWN ‘success’, even despite initially labeled as ‘lunatic, crazy, naive, nonsense, bullshit’ at first!
don’t give up your LIFE and choose DEATH easily yet.
Death will come eventually whether soon or later,
but LIFE, in this Earth particularly, only comes ONCE.
so please try to LIVE this LIFE, and do and create the BEST Change you want to see.
“Be the Change you want to see” ~ Mahatma Gandhi.
I think you may be missing his point niki. This man doesn’t want any success, don’t you see? It is only his and certainly my point of view so please don’t see it as an attack of you personally; but some people see wanting anything other than saving victims in this life, including any ‘original successes’ is selfish. How can anyone want anything like that from this world when the majority of mankind is being so cruelly destroyed? To find anyway of carving out yourself some ‘happiness, success etc’ is ultimately selfish. This man can’t live in this world this way, he wants to put his life to real use (like me) by saving humanity. Whilst most countries in this world are brutally torturing our fellow men, how can any one of us with a truly good heart and soul even THINK about our success and our happiness??
You are entitled to your opinion, but in this case, you are not giving that opinion to the right person.
If an alien landed in your garden and asked if you know what is going on all over the world, that your people are being destroyed brutally, you would have to answer him, ‘of course I know, but I’m busy trying to find some success for myself here and some happiness. I have a purpose in life you know!’ Do you not think that he would laugh his head off or be so totally shocked even FURTHER by our species?
Berndt, couldn’t agree more! You spoke my own thoughts here man. Only some people fully understand this notion, it’s a shame and it’s why some people chose death over this life. It’s impossible. Even those who think they are ‘good’ are just delusional – doesn’t make them bad, just makes them delusional.
I am new here. I agree with these comment of the post and the comments of layton39 and berdndt. Music for my soul!
@berndt2010 and layton39: thank you for pointing it, and that is actually also *exactly* my point: helping and saving humanity. THAT is my criteria of ‘success’ as of now currently (thanks to many wonderful posts here, most especially Splinter’s message…you can see how deeply i am touched by his message, and planning to DO something to honor his ‘teachings’, as I’m sure you’ll also do if you’ve read his posts).
so yeah, I would even say screw with all the material-and-status success.
believe me guys, that we are on the same boat.
It might just be there’s something wrong with my sentences here and there, and please pardon me if that’s the case, as english is not my first native language (I am from Indonesia). I try as hard as I can to convey my message, but since I’m not a perfect person, the message might get ‘lost in translation’ due to grammar, or words-usage mistakes/errors.
to that, I am truly sorry.
but please know that we are on the same boat (or at least, similar ‘boat’ or line of thinkings).
Niki: Your a good soul don’t worry about getting lost in translation, it is clear you you are passionate
bye…see ya soon