I am such a coward. why am i so afraid to follow through on my attempts. I know that my everyday life is much more painful than any method of committing suicide. Everyday hurts so why cant i do this. is it the pain or the fear of what comes after. i dont know all i know is i hate me and i hate my life. i suffer everyday and i want it to end.  I think maybe i should get some bug foggers and set them off in a small enclosed area it should be painless right? then i get scared that it wont work and i’ll just get sick or go blind and end up in the hospital with large bill because thats the type of stuff that happens to me. I am so lost. i dont know how to escape.
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Hey there:
I cannot fathom in a million years as to what it is that you are going through. But apparantly, it must be a lot to bear because you said “i suffer everyday and i want it to end”. I hope that in some wierd way your pain and emotional distress can be eased and that you can gain the strength needed to overcome and cope with your situation and circumstance.
Even so, what’s so funny (not really funny, just a saying) about suicide is that when your attempts fail, they can do more damage than before like you said. Life may end up worst off than it was before you attempted suicide because you may end up having to live with the consequences of your actions.
But even so my dear, I wish you all the best of luck that this life can offer you. I hope that you can stay strong through it all even though it may be very very difficult. If you want to talk to someone for any reason at all, even just for the sake of talking, you can contact me at angeloflight@hotmail.com. May peace be with you:)
hi her23435
You are not a coward. I commented here 3 or 4 days ago, and I still have not killed myself. I have attempted twice in the past year and have effectively failed! I understand the hurt and the pain you are going through, I know the feeling when every minute of every hour physically hurts you to get through. Let me know if you want to talk, even just to know that you aren’t the only one feeling like this, that you aren’t alone. If you want to chat I will give you my addy. Hope you are okay x
hey there hang on nd like angel of light said we do nt knw hw it feels iv hd thoughts bt i never tried it hey all u need to knw is tht jesus christ loves u nd u werent born to end ur life u have a great life to live so hng in there fight jesus will be proud of u tap in to the bible nd pray to god to help u becuase he has helped me though sum very tough spots like im a young man nd i have a massive fear of rejection and have been rejected by girls friends all my life it doesnt matter hw hard i try no one wants to be with me. bt then i found out whn i thought life wasnt goin gud for me that good loves me and accepts me for who i am. so if u need to talk to sum 1 about whats happening im here for u nd ill be putting u in your prayers. no this if u kill urself then u r telling god tht u werent supposed to be born nd tht him creating u was a mistake nd god does not mistakes no this. hold on like the good charllotte songs says. contact me rw06605@gmail.com
i praying 4 u no tht
Being afraid to do the deed is not cowardice because considering all the things that can go horribly wrong you have to be really really sure you’ll succeed in your attempt, and you also have to be in the right frame of mind or what I can ‘in the zone’ if that makes sense? Actually I think the decision to go a head with a suicide is one of the bravest things a human can do, so don’t be hard on yourself hon. And besides, in the time it may take for you to work up the courage again you could perhaps find a reason to live! =)