Today all my hopes dies. My life was soo bad from the beginning. no freedom. My parents refused to take me away from the school I used to go to because they want too feel like they did everything they could do to help me in life. Today I got my subject selection form. Guess what? I got all the basic subjects.. I didnt get any of the subjects I wanted.. I know none of this sounds like a big deal but it is. Because I always try my best and at the end I dont get any result. Slowly my hop, faith and everything dies. Theres nothing for me to live by. I found a whole lot of ways to kill my self.. now i am just gonna try one by one.. This is something that I hope i succeed in.