This society is designed to kill off humans, it’s written in history. The media and our ‘leaders’ have messed with us to the extent that we ‘go mad’ or suffer immeasurable pain – we believe that pain to be ‘our circumstances’ such as failed marriages, no love-life, lack of money, or a terminal illness – it’s all designed to kill us off. It’s the reason why what’s left of humanity is going mad, really struggling or suicidal. I really do believe that there are massive changes happening in our world, it’s all around us and we also ‘feel’ it. But even most of our own ‘friends’ don’t see it, or think we are ‘depressed’. I think it’s either God telling us to get the fuck out, or it’s the design. All I see out there in society are like zombie humans, very rarely I see a real person anymore, it’s a scary place for someone like me to be.Â
I can’t stop thinking about suicide, I’ve tried really hard to find an alternative but my head keeps telling me to get the hell out whilst I can and over the past year it’s getting louder and louder and more often, in fact this last 3 months it’s constant. I can’t work or function anymore. Literally everything scares me. It’s funny how within our own kind we are living completely different lives of massive extremes, makes me think I’m either totally mental or the ones who are in tune with this world are not proper human beings. If I was anything other than a living being, I would say that I have sirens going off constantly warning me of danger and I must abort mission.