I swear I fuckin’ hate this whole “awaiting moderation” thing, I’ve typed such a long reply to you & your excellent post, steve_c, but then it comes again this “awaiting moderation” thing. Luckily I have copied what I’ve wrote, and I’ll paste/write it again here:
thank you everybody for your posts, and also kyle, for your caring of me (english is also not my first language, so I really appreciate you’re taking some time to write out & translate your thoughts into english. it’s not easy).
Believe me that I very much appreciate it. and thank you very much Steve, for actually braving yourself to straight-ahead address all of this to me,.and you are right. It is clear from your post, and also some others here, that I still know perhaps only the ‘surface’ of all of this. and I honestly admit that.
Even about the whole ‘Indigo’ thing, although I’ve certainly heard about it like about a year ago,..it was only when I came into this website (strangely), and also some other funny mysterious ‘coincidence’ that happened to me in real life that, somehow, strongly signaling me to go research about this deeply. and you can bet that I was startled by it.
But rest assured, that at this current point in my life, NOTHING, I repeat, nothing really interests me more than knowing *more* and more about the TRUTH.
Ever since I’ve read some posts here, and perhaps most startling is of Splinter’s, it’s as if my eyes are opened, to see the ‘bigger picture’, of what’s REALLY happening in this -as many of you can sense here- crumbling humanity. Heck, I can’t even ‘function’ normal again, unlike so many ‘normal’ people.
To tell u all the truth, I have even been feeling *something is certainly wrong with society* starting probably last year, and it’s just getting worse & worse, that I am even sick just pluggin-in myself into another 9-to-5 endless-sacrifice working-corporate zombie. FYI, today, just this afternoon, I escaped work again (why work if I can’t agree with the notion ‘normal’ and ‘successful’ invented by this superficial society anymore?), and just walked along one crowded street,..and I even feel that I am sort of an alien among the sea of people, I can see them laughing, talking & texting on the telephone, etc etc,..but I feel SAD, yes, SAD that because, like some of you said so well, these people DON’T know the Truth, and probably choose to remain IGNORANT! and just “continue with their daily life, Business as Usual”. it sickens me even just thinking about it!
Although I have to honestly say that I quite disagree with your one point on the Youtube & online thing being *totally* controlled by the government, ie: if that’s the case, then why you said for me to “research and look up for the secret society”? I mean, where else if it’s not from the free & vast flow informations in the internet? (remember that I’m still new to all of these, not like I’ve worked for the government, CIA, or University Research staff, or anything like that,..although I VERY much would love to, believe me, to do ANYTHING, give ANYTHING, to be able to know the TRUTH).
In my humble opinion, there are actually many ‘hidden’ things that I’ve discovered that I used to never know, over the Internet, that not even ONE book is sold here about these ‘hidden secret’ kind of things in my country (I live in Indonesia, and I am an Indonesian).
But nevertheless, I am very open-minded, as always and perhaps even more, to know the ‘ugly Truth’. here is my email address: firstname.lastname@example.org
and it’s not only for you Steve, but for any of you here who perhaps feel want to share, talk more personally or deeply, I would be more than happy, and honored, if you’re willing to write an email to me.
I will open my hands to you, and the Truth.
With all so many sincerity, real pains, and truths spoken here in this website, trust me that I will never, ever disregard or judge on you (if I appear like I did so in my previous posts, I am really sorry, believe me it’s not my intention at all).
and at this current point, after knowing “what’s so wrong” with society & mankind that I can’t seem to function ‘normal’,.let alone ‘successful’ in this superficial evil System, I don’t intend to go back. no, in fact, I want to go DEEPER, deeper to know the Truth. the Truth of what’s causing all the pains, the horrors, the Big *WHY* in this mankind & humanity.
again, my email is email@example.com I will so much appreciate for any info or email from any of you.
Now at least I know why I often felt “something is not right” all this time. I guess *something* (I don’t even know what is that) is trying to show me something, for always yearning for the most Truth.