I stumbled upon this site one night, and I have been lurking for months. I feel it’s time to share my story – to try and talk and relate to someone. I’m sixteen years old, and these feelings ARE real. I’m not your ‘average’ teenager. I have been feeling depressed and suicidal for many months now and it’s getting to the point where I don’t know what to do anymore. I’ve had a good upbringing – I go to school, have a job, money, a car etc. Everything a teenager could want right? But at the end of the day it is all meaningless, it doesn’t matter.
I feel so alone, I’ve never really had many friend but I had met someone this year who I considered to be my best friend. I thought things were starting to look up, but that never lasted. I’m back to being alone and stuck in this hole again! The sense of worthlessness lurks inside … I’ve always been passed up for anything more meaning full than ‘just friends’ and it hurts inside. No one knows the really me, no one understands.
I’m in too deep, nothing seems worthwhile anymore and I can’t go on like this. I feel dead inside, numb and lonely. I am kept waiting for my outsides to follow suit. Any day could be the day, maybe even tomorrow. Life isn’t worth it anymore, I have lost everything that ever mattered to me.
Why can’t I just be happy?!
Where to from here? … Somebody … Please!