Ever since I remember I have been looked at like something you use and then throw again when u don’t need it. When people need something from me they pretent to like me and i believe them like an idiot, after they’re done with me nobody cares anymore. Even my parents have always made me feel like that, they’ve always prefer my sister over me. I don’t have many friends and I have always lived my life peacefully and as decent as possible. Everyone use to call me non or they use to think I was a lesbian because I was never seen with guys or had many boyfriends, but it was because my dad was a very strict man I he tough that we could only date until we were 18 and I always follow his rules. When I was 18 I went on a vacation and meet my current partner and fell deeply in love with him, after 7 months of dating we got married but and we had a baby girl, but ever since we got together he has put his friends before me, he cares more about them then me he spends more time with them then us, he makes me feel just like everyone else hes only with me when he needs something from me, I feel used!!! I love him with all my heart but it seem that he doesn’t care for me like I do for him. He’s always telling me he loves meÂ but he doesn’t show it. He lies to me when I’m always onest with him, I been having depression for over 3 years nowÂ and IÂ have gotten to the point to were I’m cutting my self to relieve the pain I feel inside of me I’ve been having constant suicidal toughs. I believe that its my destiny to keep suffering throughout my life and I don’t want my baby to goÂ threwÂ this with me that’s why I want to die because I don’t wanna be bothering anyone any more I’m of more use dead than alive…. I DON”T WANT TO SUFFER OR MAKE ANYONE SUFFER FOR ME ANYMORE!!!!