My needs and desires cannot be fulfilled. What is so normal to everyone else is like winning the lottery to me. I want Britney so bad but nothing can be done about this for many reasons. I cannot satisfy a woman, I cannot get love, so all that is left for me to do is die. Don’t expect me to stick around while you all wave your love in my face.
To girls: I’m sorry that my ‘bad attitude’ turns you off so much. I’m sorry I have no reason to have a good attitude. Sorry that you almost seem offended by my extremely depressed state. I’m sorry that I was born. I’m sorry that I can’t satisfy you. Sorry that my voice sounds so stupid so you never really know what I mean. I’m sorry if you ever thought I was ignoring you or something like that, I just couldn’t bring myself to speak to you. I’m sorry that I can’t make conversation with you. Sorry that the lack of love and affection in my life has caused me to become a sad, suicidal hateful person. I would say sorry for not sticking around but, you don’t really care, you have no reason to when there are so many others out there.
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If the only reason you are trying to kill yourself is because you can’t pleasure a woman then that isn’t good enough. You should young, so i’d say wait a few years because life might change for you. Have you gotten therapy? Have you tried your best to seek out doctors, groups, medicine, etc.?
IF someone is making you feel bad for being depressed and sucidial then fuck them. They don’t understand and are less understanding as you. I’ve realized that most people who haven’t experienced depression have no clue what that person is going through.
PS My boyfriend is a miserable, drug addicted, a hole, yet i am still with him. ALthough i’m no happy perfect person, i”m attractive, smart, funny, and give him enough love to keep him satisfied. He does very little to satisfy me. THere is someone out there for you, not the perfect person we are told to seek ignorantly as children, but someone realistic, someone just like us or that understands us. But first you need to get yourself a bit more stable. I am not stable in the slightest, but i’m stable enough to be in a semi normal relationship and at times have held jobs. I’m pushing through everyday and itg’s a struggle, but i think it’s good enough for me. Fuck what everyone else expects of you, you do what you are capable of and do your best.
Dont give up until you’ve tried hard enough and have nothing left to give.
I hate how everyone sees things the same way I do.