I have now reached the end of the line. Â I have spent my entire life doing the right thing, caring for others, offering compassion, love and hope, but I have rarely got any of that back. I have tried for as long as I can to ignore that fact and keep my chin up. It’s painful for me to see so many awful people in the world. I’m interested in people and so I explore them, always have, but always with good intentions, but more often than not, I discover awfulness. Give me a person who claims to be kind hearted and I will prove you wrong – this is the culmination of my life’s purpose. Life is like swimming through mud, rarely you find a diamond, but after years of swimming through the mud, a few diamonds do not a full heart make.
The human face to me is something that I pray I never have to deal with again.
Sincere love and peace to you all.
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i am really hoping that sum1 contacts me soon,sum1 serious pls…everythings becoming ten times worse-i am in the uk-female in 20s looking 4 a partner 2 exit with-the girl 18th sept ,chased-god our feelings and story so similar-i will go out alone at the end of sept if i have 2-but i am praying a man or a woman contacts me who is serious-the timewasters cause more pain-pls leave me a post if u want what i want and u r in uk-i can travel or u can come 2 me-also pls feel free 2 text me or ph me 07827 514 375
you are right i know of no one that has good intentions but then again… why do you need someone to live for? doesn’t it make you happy making people happy? I like to make people happy, I really do but i can’t say I’m unhappy being alone… haha sorry i think i don’t make much sense.
babyangelx I see you have posted this heartfelt request a lot today and no-one has responded to you in the way that you want, let me tell you why that is. Suicide is so difficult, such an immense thing to do, I can totally understand why you would want company at that time, the fact you want to have (and offer) a hand to hold is so beautiful and I wish with all my heart that someone in the same position would take you up on your request, but please consider this;
If the chance came up that there was someone in the uk who also wanted to die in the next few days, they may not want to die by your chosen method. Also, a double suicide would most definitely make the newspapers and cause a lot of concern, confusion and even police investigation into the lives of both parties.
Also, think of what could potentially (and likely) go wrong; the likelihood of 2 individuals actually going ahead at the same time is slim, timings are very personal at such an emotional time. Also, what if one of the suicides didn’t work and one did? One person would have a dead body to account for.
That is an awful lot to ask someone, I very much doubt anyone will take you up on your offer, even if they are wanting to so very much. Your idea is romantic but unrealistic.
This is why no-one has responded to you, they are scared and suspicious of your post, so please don’t think no-one cares. I’ve thought about you a lot today sweetheart and I really do hope you find some peace very soon one way or another.
I love you. Thank you for spending your entire life doing the right thing, caring for others, offering compassion, love and hope to others. I’m doing the same thing you been doing for a long time, so you’re not alone in your quest.
We’re doing the right thing, I promise you that you’re right. Just don’t choose to die.
Harmonia – Your reply to babyangelx is beautiful and well written. I have noticed her posts a lot too and just didnt know what to say back. But you just said it all perfectly. Thankyou.
I have been where you are. I still have these Days. I’ve set up an email for this.. to unite people or one on one private chatting. anything thats required. All confidential. Babycake@gmx.co.uk Babyangelx get in touch. And anyone else needing this x
“The human face to me is something that I pray I never have to deal with again.”
same here