my brother took his life a few weeks ago ,he shot himself at his home he was married had 2 grown kids,no money problems,that is all i know.no note left..so many unanwered questions i will never know..i feel haunted by it ,the way his life deceased ,the state of his mind to hate himself and life so so much ..i believe his thinking and reality had become so distorted and his life became in HIS HEAD in his head living hell ,he created this ,i believe anyone can create this,by anxiety and stupid worries and thinkin to much ,our minds turn on us and reality becomes hell..we need to be clever and keep tabs on our selves ,this is the key to a better life and to be strong ..get knowledge about how we work ,how our mind our thoughts can make us or break us…my brother came t o me in my dreams.usually in dreams u never see a persons face so clear..i saw his so clear.he asked me if i was ok? he said he was lonely.he said he knows now it was wrong..i said where do u go now .he said later i will go to another universe..maybe its nothing only my subconsious ,but he is gone and family all have the questions and the pain,its not easy ,if anyone reads this and thinks abt taking there life ,plz think of the loved ones,i am strong and i look at things differently,but other memebers of my family because of his escape ,there life has become aliving hell
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Blimey no wonder he did what he did if you’re in his life!
i was wrong there is 2 in every million , i send u love xx
perry u loathe looking at urself in the mirror .ur a sad pathetic human being ,who i can only pity .ur a joke and u dont even know it.
outsidein: that wasn’t your brother in your dreams that was your devil, the one you made up or maybe it is you that has gone mental?
I’m very please that your brother had the courage to do what he did, he obviously didn’t stand a chance in this world if he has the likes of you around him.
i c u r the one in a million ,man ur funny .
ur a cold hearted lonley sad piece of nothing ,only the scum of the earth wld write that..i bet u loathe ur face when u look in the mirror .lol i bet my life on that one
Hi My friend. Am sorry to read about your brother and the comments these others have left you. There seems to be two types of people that take their lives, those that are have stresses, strains, financial or relationships etc and then there are the selifish ones who just dont care about those around them, I guess like suicide bombers who dont care who they hurt or kill.
I guess your brother had some stresses or problems that he couldnt or didnt want to involve or trouble others in. If like me these problems could have been building up inside of hime for many years or some case decades. Unfortunatley when it gets to this stage there is a short period when your mind takes over and these things happen. I myself have got to that stage but is usually fuelled by anger. I have seen my self , after an argument with my partner walk out jump in the van and drive it as fast as i can in tears hoping that something would go wrong and hurt or kill me without me having to do anything.
My life has got to a stage where everything i had has gone. my partner and i have split, selling the house and moving apart. we have a 2 year old and am constantly being put down for things i should have done etc. we are having to live with each other while the house sells and i am struggling to watch her be happy when she has helped to destroyed my life.
sorry for rambling on.
I hope you can let your brother rest quietly. He done what he did for a reason, a reason he wanted to keep to himself. Sometimes help is no good because having to go through councilling sessions etc makes you feel worse before you get better, most wont see a light at the end of the tunnel.
You need to remember the good times with your brother and help his family come to terms with it. spend your time supporting other than asking questions.
Hope this helps in any way
hi,thanku friend your words are of a comfort to me,im really lost why people have written things about me that are cruel,you seem very wise any insights? surely people arent that screwed up are they? what you say is nice to me and it does help,thanks for sharing your mind with me .i dont really understand this site ,is there anyway i can send u a message without others seeing it ?
Outsidein; you (and a lot of other “normal” folks) simply do not understand that very often, the brain chemicals of folks who are suicidal, whether they succeed or are still lingering, are not like “normal” people. Their condition is not a “choice”. They are not “creating” it; they’re born with it and it’s only a matter of time before they symptoms surface. These people can not help it or “snap out of it”. Those of us who shouldn’t be here and know it are faking the motions of living like “normal people”, sounds like that’s what your brother was doing, that is a living hell. After a while, it gets to be too much. It’s not about being “strong”, it’s about reaching your limit. I’m glad your brother is out of his pain.
In the meanwhile, drug companies, shrinks and rehabs are earning massive profits with their snake oil fixes (hey, if they actually fixed you, they’d be out of a job!) and soaking health insurance and people’s life savings for every dime they can get.
You and he can have a long talk about it when you meet again in the afterlife. Perhaps he will help you understand.
Please do some research on the subject rather than being judgemental.
i have no answers,just searching for some ,im not being judgemental just lost in pain,thanks for info .
hey sorry i just read ur comment again ,all im trying to do is to understand suicide,you seem to know alot, how can i research it,i want to learn more understand more, im just as lost as anyone ,i am knw better than anyone,i have no answers ,just ideas my mind is open,tell me more plz
Often times some of the self-proclaimed strongest people on this earth are the first to crumble when they are hit by an adverse life event, and are often also, the biggest hypocrits. These people solve everyone else’s problem in a single sentence, almost like superman jumping tall buildings in a single leap, yet they cry and squeal like little bitches when something doesn’t go their way. My ex FIL was a stern judgemental man, who fell into deep depression when life didn’t go his way. He even to this day still maintains the judgementalism even while moping around the house expecting others to feel sorry for him. Barrykitty, very correct re the profteering drug and therapy companies. I use to take my ex-wife to a Christian counsellor. They had a sign that adorned the entrance to the office with something like “Giving to the Community what God has given us” something like that not in those exact words I cannot remember. The counselling office charged $40 and hour for textbook therapy – and that is being kind to their services! She went 5 mins overtime one session and charged an extra $5! Wtf? I just cannot believe the hypocrisy of on the one hand, boasting about giving to the community, then sucking money out from their vicitms like a money-grabbing bank of sorts. Use to make me sick to my stomach with anger. I recall convincing my wife not to go back there again after this.
OutsideIn: Yea, even these sites have all sorts of trolls and assholes on them like perry & listen above, posting stupid inane crap. They’re just trying to get a rise of out you & they’re showing their (low) level of intelligence & true nature when they do that; too bad these type of ppl don’t have some sort of “moron”, “asshole” or “troll” stamp on their foreheads while they float around society (like turds in a commode) so we “normal” ppl can avoid (or flush) these clowns. These type of ppl make me wanna pop myself (ha ha).
I vote for a TROLL season! Yea, a troll hunting season for these people. Then maybe it would be easier to live our lives w/o so many assholes out there trying to screw things up. CULL THE HERD I SAY! Ha ha.
Wow – sad about your brother, sorry to hear. Eerily similar to my situation (which is why I’m posting) – I’m married, kids, no money issues, have some employment (or lack thereof) issues right now, life isn’t terrible, but, I get self destructive thoughts too. The main thing with me is that I’m fucking angry. Had a decent gig doing consulting which was a living horror due to all the morons I had to work with. That might be a clue as to my unhappiness. For me, it’s having to work & live with stupid people all around me. These stupid ppl are everywhere! They’re bosses, doctors, lawyers, laborers, fast food clerks etc etc etc, all making our lives harder than it should be. Add in the greedy, stupid M-f*ckers in local, state, federal, world politics, Wall St, etc…well…for me, I would love to pop these ppl like “perry†& “listenâ€, aye, that’d be fun. Troll rampage! Bang bang bang bang bang bang! (reload) bang bang bang bang….that would make me feel MUCH better. Maybe it’s a loss of control/just one of the rats in the rat hellhole issue? Brain chemicals? Both? I dunno.
hey thanks for some understanding u put a smile on my face. i wasnt to concerned abt there crap ,they think im coming frm another place ,but as u know theu are the losers in this game called life,yer its a game i reckon today (each day i have a new theory ) well almost..that the aliens have got us so called humanbeings in a big pen and just amusing themselves .while we fuk with each others head .hehehe i do beleive anythings possible ,just the thought knowing the our universe is meant to be expanding in some stupid number a second to turn u into a nut case ..sometimes cant help to ask the big questions ,maybe that is what keeps u sane ,to get out of the 9 to 5 shit ,which is a human tamer trap . post me agains i’d appreciate it
outsidein, you and PlayDough’s comments are so similar in every way possible it’s like they both came from one person.
hey love .are you saying our comments are the same ,or similar in everyway possible ??? give me some insight why u think this
outsidein: I think it’s lovely when someone finds another that speaks their exact language and supports them with their ideas. Esp on a site such as this.