I recently realized that I was depressed from a very early age. Probably from around the age of 5. I used to watch my dad beat my mom. Finally she left him. I was the youngest of six so after the seperation I was raised by my sister and was basically neglected by both of my parents since my dad was never around. In Junior High was the first time I tried to commit suicide. I just took a bunch of OTC pills and made myself very sick for a few days. Then I started to cut and burn myself with lighters and act out by skipping school. My mom never paid much attention to me. Now I am 30 and I am trying very hard to help myself get better. I am on a various assortment of medications but I am really feeling miserible lately. I am feeling extremely sad, crying alot, sleeping alot, and having bouts of anger. Alot of the time I feel as though if I didn’t have kids there would be no point at all for me to be here. I am just so confused about everything right now. I need help.