if you are suffering and also interested in getting better, I have some info to offer that may or may not help.
first and foremost my email is asprin4themasses@gmail.com. If you ever need someone to talk with email me, I’ll even give you my number, we can chat at odd hours.
Second is for those of you who are depressed because of economics, I can offer the subsection of a website called reddit, called frugal http://www.reddit.com/r/Frugal/top/?t=all. These guys are the best, simple  to advanced tips to stay alive in hard times. They also have a community about suicide, http://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/
Third is the information that depression has physical links, and they could play a huge factor. Are you healthy? this is a first, you can’t skip it. It’s not hard, just check out the food pyramid and start some jump rope etc. Stretching will give you a lot more energy. No one gets it overnight but the simple and slight improvements in this area will quickly gain inertia and you may see many other things in life improving.
Fourth, if you are generally lonely do you have any means of artistic expression? you may be thinking it’s not for you but theres infinite possibilities on how to go about that. If no one else is around I find I love to dance stupidly, and sometimes angrily to music I like.
Fifth, I said this somewhere else, but wherever you are, physically, socially, emotionally, intellectually, spiritually, its the wrong place for you, and if you stay there it will kill you. you need to risk change and movement on one or more of these levels. improvement by definition is change, you are filled with this power
good luck and communion
Alex
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This is an interesting list. I see ways in which I could apply these things to improving my life. The risk-taking for example, I was on the cusp of that and now I’m back to being forced to worry about only the immediate/practical things. I guess I didn’t move fast enough towards my goals. Too many mistakes. All I can do now is cross my fingers that I’ll be given another chance. I don’t want to die. I’m just backed into a wall. I feel like I’m living out that movie Groundhog Day, like this is some sort of repetitive purgatory I’m in. Everything takes me a long time, always baby steps and I think too much about every little thing.
Now that I’m suddenly back at the rock bottom I’m wondering if this is the universes way of telling me that I do not deserve to attain any kind of happiness. Looks that way.
Fuck hope, aim low. Aim so low that if you miss nobody will notice or care. In the event you hit, well it will seem all the more amazing.