There was a time, not so long ago that I became extremely close to checking myself out of life early. My mind was so twisted, I just figured everyone would get by fine without me. Once I pulled myself back together & started to think like a rational person, I realize how CRAZY that idea was. It scares me to think how close I actually came. Mom always said suicide was a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Luckily for me my window of opportunity closed before I could take action. Instead of pursuing my delusion, I sought help. If you are considering checking out early, please seek help first. I am so extremely happy that I did. I would have missed so much. When you are in that dark whole, you are not thinking straight and you convince yourself that you are making the correct decision when in fact, you are making the worst decision a person can make.