Im sitting across the room from my husband of
sixteen years. Im desperate and never felt more alone
I dont know what to do anymore. I feel like I have
endured too much. I dont really want to die but
I feel like Im not welcome here anymore. Â My
brother commited suicide about 5 years ago. Leaving me
an only child. My mother has delt with multiple
ilnesses all my life and had became addicted to
prescription pain meds. Now she is blind and mostly
bed ridden. I have to sit with my mom everyday,
often 7 or 8 hours a day.
My father works hard to make ends meat.
My husband handicapped from a severe car accident
lends no support with my mom and is often
aggitated because I have to care for my mom.
I have two children that I feel
that I get to see less and less of everyday. I weigh
about 350 and since my brother died am very
much an alcoholic. Im lost and dont know were
to turn anymore. Â I feel like Im killing myself.
just in a slow and miserable way. I dont want
my kids to go thru this the way I have with my
mom. I lost my only brother, Im losing my mom,
I feel like my husband is just to tired to deal with
it. Â What do I do?
1 comment
grab your kids, and move far far away. leave the others behind. staying with them is just keeping you miserable – in that condition you are useless to everyone. if you take your kids and move – you will be able to change your condition and make both yourself and them happy. merciless but it is your only way out – and the only way out for your children.