I just couldn’t take it anymore!! Then…..

I was a happy child until grade 7, my life changed on me before i could react. I started cutting it was bad, then i started to OD because the cutting wasnt working anymore. One time i OD right before school and i lost it first class, it was like i wasnt there. I was gone i couldnt hear the people around me. I was out of it so I told my closest friend and she understood her brother went through the same thing. I knew she was there for me. Then I told my other really good friend and she told the counsloer so the next day i had to talk to her and i freaked out because i didnt want anyone else to know it was bad. But i changed the story saying i didnt mean too i had a really bad head ache. Then that problem went away.
Grade 8 was a lot better i started to get my life back. Then summer of 2010 i had this sitaution wit this guy and I saw him again and at first it was okay then it wasnt he doesnt even talk to me and him and I use to be so close!!! I miss him! I OD that night when my friend wasnt looking. I felt good after.That summer i found god. He has changed my life in a good way. I always turn to him…then i though it’s a lot easier to be bad then to be good. So i wanted to be bad but there was nothing i could do so last night i decided to give my love, my heart, and my soul to god. Right now at this moment i feel so much better then i did in grade 7. Your life will change if you want it to! It just takes time!