For 2 years I’ve been depressed, on and off medication, an alcoholic and a drug user, and yet I’m still alive, through stupidity or the sheer will to just live, I don’t know.
I’m tired of all this bullshit, no one will listen, no one will understand, not even the ones closest to us. I don’t want any more antidepressants, I don’t want to hurt anymore, I’m only 18 and have nothing going for me, I suck at school because I’m unmotivated and sleep deprived and I hate my job. The only thing good about me is that I’m pretty. Being good looking gets you know where, and I’m done trying. If When I was born I could have understood all the pain I would have had to live through, I could have choked myself with the umbilical cord right then and there.
I just want someone to listen.