For 2 years I’ve been depressed, on and off medication, an alcoholic and a drug user, and yet I’m still alive, through stupidity or the sheer will to just live, I don’t know.
I’m tired of all this bullshit, no one will listen, no one will understand, not even the ones closest to us. I don’t want any more antidepressants, I don’t want to hurt anymore, I’m only 18 and have nothing going for me, I suck at school because I’m unmotivated and sleep deprived and I hate my job. The only thing good about me is that I’m pretty. Being good looking gets you know where, and I’m done trying. If When I was born I could have understood all the pain I would have had to live through, I could have choked myself with the umbilical cord right then and there.
I just want someone to listen.
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I can listen, I’m quite sure I can understand you. I’m pretty far at the same point with you for everything to be just a too big mess. I have gone through lots and lots of shit and for some reason, still here.
Hang around this forum, you’ll meet plenty of people who feel just like yourself and you may begin to develop a bond with some. 🙂
well im here to talk anytyme just email sunshinerainbow36@yahoo.com