I don’t want to slowly and painfully die, first your mind, sight, hearing go, you start to piss and poo yourself, weak, ugly, skin rotting in the bed meanwhile your grandkids are depressed because they will never see you and they contemplate their own future deaths.
Fuck that, live hard, party hard die young. I am 29 and I already feel my body slowly down, I have been working out 5-6 days a week since I was 18. Things hurt me that never hurt before, it takes me longer to recover after workouts, my metabolism is slowing down, my vision is crap as well as my hearing and I am only 29.
I don’t go for blood work at my doctor’s office, I have no idea what my cholesterol level is and I don’t care.
I am not going out with dead rotting skin on my bones, organs shutting down and an old heap of bones/skin that no one cares about nor remembers.
I want to die young and look good. Like that, I wont grow old, ugly and all wrinkled up. I don’t have to die really young, but so long as those who remember me, do it as me still looking good. I also have a sick kinda belief that those who grow old and eventually rot away slowly are like leeches of life, who the hell wants to be here and too old to wipe your own ass? Not even that; Â if I can’t dance, have sex and do things by myself, that’s not a life worth living.
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DanielZ, you’re 29? Would it be incorrect to assume that you have family?
You refuse to take care of yourself? Clearly, you have medical and psychological conditions that you are not talking about. If you’re lucky, you have the choice of overdosing on anything you can get your hands on. You go on ahead, girl, and don’t waste any time about it. I’m sure anyone who is stuck living with you will not be sorry to see you go, nor will they miss wiping your butt. Make sure your suicide is successful. We won’t be expecting any more messages from you.