The emotions I am feeling right now are indescribable by mere words alone. Those emotions did not come lightly. I’m seriously suicidal, Â I will be gone this weekend. Â My reasons would possibly be laughed at by most people, I would expect nothing more and that’s part the reason I am suicidal. But there just mightÂ be others that understand my reasons, and that is why I am creating my suicide note online for anyone to see.Â
I can’t help but think about the human race, our place in the Universe. Our history, our future. And I keep thinking, that something is wrong. Something is very, very wrong.
As long as our species has existed, we have constantly killed one another. We have created ideas, ideologies, theologies and doctrines to justify killing one another. We just want each other dead. We are the only species in the world that kills one another. Why are we doing this?
From the beginning of our conscious mind, so kindly “given” to us by Evolution, we have tried to find ways to kill one another. It started off with brute force attacks, but as time advanced, those attacks became more sophisticated. We have evolved in terms of warfare, and killing each other, but we haven’t got rid of it.
We fight over superficial things, such as economy. We fight over fossil fuels, which are outdated to say the least and should have been replaced by something better years ago.
We get absolutely nothing done, and it’s all due to our idiotic beliefs that do not help us the least. So, yes. I’m embarrassed to be a part of this non-progressive utterly conservative idiotic species that believes 2000 year old bullshit instead of scientific facts, backed by evidence. A species so eager to get back into the dark ages. A species killing one another over religion.
I’m embarrassed to be a human being.