First of all, I gotta say, I came on this site about 2 weeks ago, just browsing, and I saw some superb discussions and comments. I saw real honest and deep suicide notes, followed by real and honest responses. Tonight I came here and the story is completely different, there’s still a good few posts going on but there’s plenty of absurdity too. Some people giving ‘advice’ on here in awful, dated and empty-headed phrases, that I thought a site like this would be free from.Â
Anyway, in a way it’s good that I came here tonight because I have been in-between suicide and hope for a while, tonight I was on the hope side. I came on here and read forceful and insulting advice from people who actually claim they are trying to help people, blatant nasty insults on well written and thought out posts (there is no such thing as respect even on here I see) and it is clear to me that there are ones on here that are not suicidal and yet have no capabilities to communicate in any realistic way. It has made me realise just how unfriendly and disgusting society it, if it is even splashed all over a site for suicidal people then there IS no hope. That’s my answer. I found it here, so really, I have these awful individuals to thank for helping me decide.
There are of course a good number of what seem like brilliant people that visit this site and I would like to say that reading your extremely insightful and brilliant discussions has been a huge comfort for me, and enabled to to keep hoping, even if it was for just a short while. However, although the sh1t element is relatively small in comparison, I can’t help but be overcome with despair by it. I think the fact that it is on a suicide site that bothers me the most. To some, this is used kinda like a facebook page and they think it entertaining to post insults and crap on here. I can’t bare to live amongst such awfulness and it’s everywhere, clearly. It’s my time to bow out of the ‘game’ of life.