I love reading things from you, I feel your pain and I share the same views. All of you, to me, came across as such beautiful and honest people, ones I would really love to know. It makes me so very sad that I don’t see comments from you anymore.Â
Alluvion commented a couple of days ago but it was not his/her usual style, I feel something is wrong. I know JennyA is terminally ill and I pray that she is okay. This site is a sadder place without words from you guys.
Beautiful souls, that I fear don’t belong here.
x
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I myself often wonder about people on here. I am suicidal myself (not yet found the right time or method) but still, it makes me sad when I have taken to someone else’s story and views and then it seems they are no more. I wonder if they are dead and whether I could have known them better. I wonder what it is about us that makes us feel we can’t or shouldn’t make actual contact with people even when they are speaking to our own soul? There’s a part of me that wants to grab a bag and go to where that person is, but then something stops me, reality I think, I wonder why reality stops me from following my heart? I hate that.
Wow! I do that all the time, wondering where some people are, if they’re dead 🙁
And I often read a post and feel like saying “Oh wow I love you, please lets meet for coffee” but I never do coz I’m pretty sure it would freak people out. So I’m left in my shit world and they are left in theirs coz we are scared to take a risk I guess.
There’s always a Place to Wonder. ANd Thoughts of Suicide.
I’ve been thinking of it cause …
well Many reasons..
It made me very… Different from who I want to be.
Im Lost and I think Darkness is very Cold but it feels Like Home!
I’ve always wonder why everyone is soo Happy!
And How many people are Dying or Suffering.
SAD,
My heart has been heavy of late, making me bitter and cold. I’m on the way out.
Indeed,..it is definitely worth a question to ask: what is preventing ALL of us, similar like-minded souls, to come and meet each other?…
Is it “Reality” ?
or are we just damn scared of the uncertainty & risks?
afraid to move out from our comfort zone?
If you want to search similar, like-minded souls in ONLINE (internet), there’s actually plenty of forums, and websites like SP here.
but indeed,..I know how you guys feel…that somehow ‘online encounter’ alone is still not ‘comforting’ enough.. You need REAL, fleshy encounter with each other.
As ‘romantic’ as this might sound, but I think it’s true that perhaps we need to hold each other’s hand, hear each other’s voices, etc..rather than looking at the “dry” letter-typing on monitor screen.
That’s the *beauty* of human souls, isn’t it?… we need the WARMTH of each other,…something that has terribly MISSING in this whole ‘evil dry System’ we’re living in now.
But really,..I’ll ask again: what prevents us from meeting each other?
what *really* prevent us from moving together to a remote island (like somebody posted before), or village etc?
what is it?…
Hello, Alluvion, try to feel our arms around you.
Yes, yes, yes, Scotty, beam us all up to somewhere that we can be together and leave the rest of the crappy world behind. We would build a community the way it should be, not the lousy way we’re forced to “keep acting happy” for.
About getting together; fantastic idea. One problem would be that wherever we went, the property would belong to someone who wouldn’t allow us to meet there if they found out why. Don’t want outside family members calling Jeff Fieger for a class action lawsuit if anyone died during or after.
Also, probably impractical for many of us due to financial and other circumstances, but WE are people who should be in each other’s lives, because we truly WANT to understand one another. Not like a shrink or counselor who’s only answer to everything is “and how does that make you feel?” I can’t believe they get paid for that crap. My cat’s a better shrink than any person I’ve ever talked to. He actually does listen and I KNOW he loves me. He can tell when I’m down and tries his best to comfort me. He’s the little boy I talk about and I can not bear the thought of abandoning him.
There are support groups of many kinds all over the place now, though I’ve never heard of one targeted to folks who are considering suicide. I think what’s in place now are groups for “depression”. Our contributors are facing much more serious issues than “my prozac just isn’t working like it used to; and where did you find those shoes?”.
Alluvion, I would like to talk with you
What restrains us from following our heart is the illusion of fear that has been fed to us through sources that have bad intentions and do not want us to come together, for together we are strong, divided we fall.
alluvioncypher@gmail.com or you can search that on facebook and message me there.