I hate myself. I hate myself so much. I’ve reached the point where I just can’t go on. I’ve tried so hard to be a good person and to do everything correctly, but everything always goes wrong. Everybody seems to hate me, and even though I don’t understand why, I can’t help but hate myself now. I find it extremely difficult to trust anybody, because almost every time I do, they do something to destroy a part of me. I am just drained of all strength to go on living like this. The very few people I do trust anymore, and the very few people around whom I can just be myself anymore, they are all far away and so hard to reach. I feel so alone, and yet I feel like I have to fight an internal fight that no one understands, complemented by a need to live my life in bare survival mode.
I can’t go on like this much longer. I know that if I can’t escape into a place where I can live some other life, I will reach my breaking point. I don’t know what will happen if I do hit that breaking point. I am scared.
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Suffering in all forms is necessary for a full filled life. Remember difficulty and pain is normal. Your not the only one out there, don’t feel alone. You will get through it!
It feels like I have posted this myself. I know exactly how you feel.
Like everything seems to be a failure. On the offchance something finally looks up, within a few days something has to spoil it right?
People who get close to me always end up running away too. I always wonder what the heck it is about me that scares people so much.
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