yesterday i wrote my story on here. why i want to go, how far i consierd it and so on. and i find it weird today, its october and 70 degrees outside, beautiful and sunny and all i can think about is how much i’ll miss the warm feeling and the colors of a day like this after i go to sleep..i think i need to talk to someone. anyone. but im scared to. if i tell my friends they might leave me, if i tell my parents they might send me to the nut house. if i tell my boyfriend..idk what would happen then. i dont know who to talk to anymore and who i can trust. ive always had trust issues but theyve grown to now i only trust 3 people. and none of them are adults.