any point to continue? I think I’ve set myself up for too much and have a hard time continuing, glad I found this site and am able to read, at least, that others have problems too, very difficult……..I think I f@c$%d up my life so bad that there is not a lot of hope for me, I want to be married, children, etc. but I’ve screwed up, don’t know if it’s possible for me……I’m in a very lonely place, I hate this feeling, I don’t want to be alone forever, but have a hard time getting things right in relationship and I’m getting older so maybe no chance for me….so is only thing I can do is get old alone! oh,,,,I’m a guy….but yes I still want to have a wife and kids who I love, and love me.l…..but I screwed up royal in earlier years. now paying for it, don’t know if family is possible now, don’t know if it’s all possible, girlfriend doesn’t know why I can’t commit, don’t know what to live for now…..no hope…..I know it sounds pathetic, it’s good to let it out…..any hope?
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You’re already better off than some because you’re actually in a relationship, but you shouldn’t be having these feelings even if you weren’t in a relationship. Don’t go about life thinking that kids are the fix-all to problems; some would tell you otherwise, but yes, they do make life seem more fulfilling. From the sounds of it, you’re on a better path than most on this site. Just keep positive and move forward. Commit if you really want to. Be true to yourself before you do anything. You don’t want to hurt anybody, and you certainly don’t want to hurt yourself.
Best of luck,
Dan
thanks dan, long night, long days, fear.
So long as there is another day there is always hope. I certainly know about screwing life up and hitting that point of no return. All I can say is time is the best medicine for bad choices. I’ve done very little good, and quite a bit of bad to many of the few I care about most. Even the worst of it will fade in time friend. Best of luck to you.