I’m 53 years old and just can’t take the pain anymore. No job, getting evicted cause I pay my rent late each month, but have NEVER been 30 days late! Someone that I love with all my heart has thrown me away and married someone he was seeing at the same time he was seeing me for the past 3 years. Sexually abused from the time I was 6 until I was 14. Have 2 failed marriages behind me. First marriage was 10 years and second was for 16 but with him for 21. Just so tired of being rejected. Feel hopeless and just want to die. I’ve suffered depression all of my life and now with no job and no insurance I have had to stop taking my medication cause I don’t have the money to pay for it. Just can’t cope anymore….
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there is no possible way to find any kind of job anywhere ? not even at a fast food restaurant? the US has 9% unemployment. In my country we have 27% and not even university graduates can find as toilet cleaners. but in the US it shouldnt be that difficult
I get more on unemployment and that isn’t even enough to cover rent and utilities and car insurance.
I mean, i can imagine they should pay at least 6 dollars an hour that would mean around 1200 a month for an 8 hours shift. Temporarily you should be able to share a flat and with half of that, you can pay a rent. You dont have a family, sisters, brothers, a parent ? In England you can see women aged 70 working at the Cash Register of Convenience Stores like COOP, and in Japan you get to see records of 84 year old women working at Wendy’s. So the US is a pretty dynamic labour market, one of the best in that aspect.
Parents are dead since 96 and 98. Sisters and brothers are having hard time as well and they have children. Rent for a small 1 bedroom where I live is 975 a month and I get 1400 a month on unemployment. By the time I pay utilities which runs about 140 a month and car insurance 70 a month and then a few groceries and gas for my car to look for a job there isn’t any left. I am in so much debt about 40,000 and everything is in collection agencies. Car registration is coming due and that is 97 for a year. Can’t afford to move cause credit is so bad and can’t come up with 1st last and deposit. I’m tired of trying everything I know to keep my head above water. I have 20 years experience in accounting but these days there are so many people looking for work and employers want a degree of some kind to work for them now. There are so many much younger people in the job market that have degrees and they are having a hard time getting work as well. Don’t know where you get your information from on the US but it isn’t the land of opportunity….life is no longer an opportunity.
America seems to host the most dire of circumstances…
You’ve lived a very unfortunate life, you deserve a medal for everything you have been through. Just remember that death is iminent, it will happen to you one day and you vannot escape from it. Regardless of how awful your situation is you must remember that there is no harm in meandering along this life, it hurts, it sucks, its torturous but its only once. When its gone it is gone.
Just keep trying. Knowing that one day peace will come.
I know it’s probably easier said than done,
but seeing similar threads like this, I feel like want to say: screw U.S.
ur life doesn’t have to be fixated in that one damn country that seems to extort innocent good people nowadays. I say fuck it, if it’s really being that greedy wolves predating and sucking out every bit of ur money.
I say, gather some bits of money u have left, pack ur bag, and just move to another overseas country, heck, move to Asia, move to Thailand, Phillipine, Taiwan, Indonesia (my home country), trust me, if you’re especially the kind of LIFE-lover, you’ll definitely get by, by jobs like teaching English (hey, at least u have much more ‘qualifications’ than me, english is not my 1st language), and MANY more! from what I know and my observations & experiences all this time, they’re (Asian countries) actually really looking for Western people to do jobs that I would term as “COOL job” like teaching, translating, TV program, etc.
Whatever u do, please:
Just. escape. the damn. from. that. wolf’s country! a.k.a U.S
when I hear this, it seems like they’re getting sick & sicker.
I say fuck ’em.
Really, you’ll get two ‘benefits’ from doing that:
1. You’re not fixated in ONE kind of life, heck, you might even find NEW kind of life, that were so unthinkable before (sometimes u just have to DO first, before u think! then u’ll change ALL ur thoughts & perspectives on Life!)
2. You’re not feeding up that damn wolf greedy “System”.
and the LESS people feeding “It”, the WEAKER it would be,
and you’d do GREAT thing to actually really change and fix HUMANITY too!
Please think about it. Give some time to *really* think about this.
At least those 2 things were what some quite famous/’legendary’ SP posters seemed wanted to pass this very important messages to all and each of us.
so let’s really DO something about it.
Again, you can pull the trigger and die any time u want or like, if all else fails and ur life actually becomes the worst lowest pit (and THAT thought alone should give u much relief ie: able to pull the trigger ANYtime u want! nobody’s going or can stop you!)
But before u really do that, my plead, and also important messages from the previous infamous SP infamous posters here is: try give Life ONE MORE CHANCE.
Try really *LIVING*.
no matter what the damn cost,
if they (the fucking System, government, feds, etc) screw you,
then go screw them back! don’t give up/give in.
hey, I mean, it’s WORTH to try, since in the end you’ll die anyway right?
Fight ’em.
Or fucking just flee from ’em, don’t feed ’em anymore!
Show them what’s being HUMAN is all really about!
I’m done here.
Please give it some thoughts, at least one last chance, for those of you who struggle,…to really LIVE.
Just try it. It might all really worth it, and change all your perspectives.
Justalvaro doesnt know shit. 9 per cent unemployment blah blah, doesnt account for the underemployed which is much higher. Justalvaro you shouldnt be on this site because you have solutions to every fuckin problem so piss off to your much higher grounds up there among the noble and prosperous you conceited piece of shit.