I never thought I would actually think about suicide. I have loving friends and loving family. I am in college and I have everything I could ask for. Still, I can stop feeling depressed. My friends and family keep telling me how wonderful I am. They respect me and even look up to me. Still I never feel like it is enough. It doesn’t even cheer me up anymore. I keep thinking they are lying to me and I don’t believe it. I think about abandoning them and trying to start new but that will probably cause me to go into a deeper depression. I have told them how I feel and they just tell me I will get over it in time. Some just tell me to grow a pair and get over it. I don’t enjoy doing the things I used to do anymore. My birthday is next week and I dread the thought of being with my friends. I admit this all started over a girl. Before I met her I was strong as a rock but now i am not. She loves me as a friend but nothing more. Every time around this year she finds a new boyfriend and I am stuck feeling the same pain over and over. I feel like I want to let her go but that might cause me to loose my friends as well. I don’t feel like moving on even though I know I can. Ive turned to God but still feel ignored. How can I feel lonely when I have so many good people around me? I guess I need some good advise before I think about the S word.