seems like its been a long time since i have been here….
things have gotten worse…
i don’t know what do to…i mean i know that killing my self is the easy way out…
i’ve had enough of buying ashes with my love…
i really do not need this
i am giving up, i need some kind of hope….i surrender i have no where else to go…i don’t think that i need to open my self again…
but once i get strong everything will be better…does that make sense? …. i feel that it doesn’t
i know what i have to do but it just hurts so much…and the tunnel seems to have no end…
the pain is just too strong….