I’ve been there and return there sometimes, like today. With all the abundant advice, I’ll just add what worked for me and I don’t pretend, like brainwashed religious nuts, that it works for even the majority of you.
[hey christian zombie, why are you here promoting a god who commits suicide?]
Anyway, this worked for me, an aging crone who’ll likely never be loved again and is bullied by christians all her life–try to move where it’s sunny and warm year-round, learn to ride a big bike, work up to a heavy one (like harley) and join those of us who now ride to live and live to ride.
best wishes
Priestess j