It’s not the answer.

I’ve heard all that myself too whenever i mentioned suicide & how depress i’ve been feeling to my family, people i know, trying to get better
or a major turn around in life, doesn’t look like it will be happening for me
soon or ever, it will take a miracle at this point for me, all the answers i’ve gotten & keep getting everyday, have only resulted in being denied, pushed away, cursed, rejected, penalized by the police, lost of friendships & family members that don’t want anything to do with me no more, only disappointment, total hopelessness & doubt, even went to church they can’t even help me cause they don’t know the answers, they say they feel real sorry for me & thats that, at this point i’m on my own, all alone, feeling real dizzy, weak, fustrated, confused & lost, waking up everyday to this reality just doesn’t seem fair to me, because i’ve become- afraid to live, trying to find the answers only has hurt me & put my life in disbelief, some people have all the luck it seems & some that don’t have none at all, like me, just have to accept it & say my life was a mistake.