Thereâ€™s something I fail to understand about suicide, but I donâ€™t mean to confuse anyone. Iâ€™ve been depressed for quite some time, and I, like so many others, see no point in life – any life at all. I understand what it’s like to yearn for death. So please understand that I know what pain is. I have a very important question for anyone who has ever felt this way.
Well, I guess I’ll explain the question.
We are the sufferers in silence. We are the brothers and sisters who share a very important thing with one another: truth. We see the world for what it is. We don’t spit on our neighbors because we know what it’s like to be spit on. We try to hide our pain because we know how powerful real pain is. Silently, we hide our suffering from the world, because we feel like the world will break us if we let it.
Some of us accept this world. Those of us that do tend to linger on in misery. Why they do so is beyond me, so please understand that Iâ€™m not saying you shouldnâ€™t kill yourself.
But WE refuse it. We deny this world the pleasure of torturing us. We commit ourselves to nothingness, prematurely ending our undeserved pain. WE all feel the same feelings. We are NOT alone, and Iâ€™m saying that WE shouldnâ€™t kill ourselves.
We are a group of men and women, boys and girls, all of us dedicated to the ugly truth that this world is nothing but a shell of what it could be. The world is a fucked up place. Why is it that the ones who admit that fact are the ones who get left behind? Why us?
Maybe we SHOULD all just kill ourselves. But evolutionary instincts tell us not to. I say FUCK instincts. But let’s think about that for a moment. If we have the power to kill ourselves, we have the power to defy our instincts. This means that we have the power to effectively ignore the most powerful driving force on the face of this planet: the drive to live. Doesnâ€™t that make us more powerful than all the stupid bastards who think itâ€™s worth it to keep living through this hell?
I think it does, and I say we use that power. People donâ€™t understand that this world is a wasteland. I donâ€™t think they ever will. Theyâ€™ll cling to their instincts like a child to its motherâ€™s breast, never letting go of the foolish, false notion that this fucked-up life is beautiful.
But there might be a chance. Maybe we can show them what they donâ€™t see. Alone, we are useless. We feel this way because it is true. As time goes on, it gets harder and harder for one person alone to make an impact.
Together, though, we have the power to fuck this world like itâ€™s fucked us. And if we use that power, we just might be able to rid ourselves of the very people that make our species as fucked up as it is. Now Iâ€™m not saying we should commit murder. Who knows, though? Maybe we should. But murder is not the goal here.
What Iâ€™m saying is that we KNOW something. Life – as we know it – is miserable. This is something that the rest of the world wonâ€™t accept, but perhaps the idea hasnâ€™t been presented in a way that they can understand. You see, we are BETTER than them. We understand what they donâ€™t, wonâ€™t, or cant. But we just might be able to fix them.Â They wonâ€™t thank us. They wonâ€™t praise us. And they wonâ€™t apologize for shitting on us all our lives. But it would at least catch them up to speed.
Think about it. With all the world understanding and accepting that human beings need to change their ways, things might actually change. If everyone on the face of the planet stopped pretending they were alone and actually started voicing their thoughts, we might actually be able to make progress.
Isn’t that why all of you are here in the first place? To voice your thoughts, right? To feel like you’re not alone? To make a change? Any of these things ringing a bell? Well, let’s DO something!
Of course, there are some things we canâ€™t control. Diseases, for example. Accidental deaths. The loss of loved ones. No matter how much we can offer this world, pain will still exist. But we, brothers and sisters, DO HAVE POWER. And I say we band together and fucking use it. We’ve been wasting ourselves away for far too long.
So letâ€™s try to save this world. Itâ€™s clear that no one else is doing it correctly. Why not? The reason we’re all suicidal is because this place – this world – has fucked us over, one way or another. Why don’t we try to fix it? We can save our successors from feeling our pain!
And if the world refuses us stillâ€¦if, in the face of unbending truth, the rest of our species still denies usâ€¦I say we burn this planet to its core. But I’m digressing a bit.
Allow me to reiterate my point. We are similar. We know this. This site is nothing but a vessel for each of us â€“ as individuals â€“ to meet others who share our pain. We all know now that we are NOT alone. So why the fuck arenâ€™t we TOGETHER? Is there really even a reason?
Iâ€™ve spent almost my entire soon-to-be 20 years on this planet doing nothing but bitching. I hate this place – not my town, the entire planet. People sometimes agree. Just about everyone sees my points as valid. But no one does anything.
I say we change that. Letâ€™s make a new website. Letâ€™s set a goal and make a plan. Letâ€™s change this place. Let us all unite in our acceptance of the ugly truth that this world is rotten, but let us at least try â€“ just TRY â€“ to UNITE so that we may fight for the fact that we have the power to change this place forever.
And if that’s not your goal – if you don’t care about making a change…if you just want to be happy and know that you’re not alone…you, too, might just find yourself a home.
But I’m sick of seeing sites like this. I don’t want people to hear me. People have heard me my whole life. It hasn’t changed jack.
I want people to hear US. I want OUR voices heard. I know I’m not the only one who wants this world to change, and I know I’m not the only one who thinks fighting together would be better than dying alone.
My email address is Devonfayr@gmail.com. Contact me. Iâ€™m a 19-year-old average male with nothing going for him. Iâ€™m not a leader. I donâ€™t make websites. Iâ€™ve got no more than a worthless high-school diploma, and I, too, am sick of feeling alone.
Letâ€™s get together, people. We understand each other. We understand that this world sucks and that it NEEDS to change. So letâ€™s stop bitching.
Letâ€™s get together and fucking do something about it.