since my failed attempt last weekend ive been thinking a lot. i talked to my friends (if you dont know what im talking about read my earlier posts) they said it just scared them and they didnt know what to do. so pretty much, they apologized and i told them what happend and why i was feeling so depressed and stuff. so it worked out and now everything is some what back to normal. (well its getting there at least) my boyfriend is still worried but i know hes just concerned for me which shows me that he really cares. my parents are going to try to be less pushy twords my future, but i have to go to a counsler once a week for a while they said. which i dont blame them for making me do that. what i was thinking was wrong, i was so wrong about everything. i dont want to die, i want to live and enjoy my life. im so lucky those pills didnt kill me. im thankful for my life and i encourage all of you to really think twice about it. really. no matter what you all may think, its not a good choice. at all. and there are people out there who care about you and love you. killing yourself wont satisfy you at all, your only going to cause pain to your freinds and family. i understand that you dont care but just do me a favor please and think about it for a while. it could really help. and dont be scared to reach out for help.
thanks for all of you who commented on my other posts with ecouraging things. it really helped me a lot.