I have been a christian my whole life, and over the past year, i have grown totally away from god. and in the past few months, i have had some feelings for girls. and i am a 14 year old girl. it says in the bible that its wrong to be gay, but its not like i can help who i have feelings for. and to top it all of, i have no friends. im not popular. i dont belong to a clique. and im annoying, have ocd, adhd, and dont know what im supposed to do anymore. and i kinda like my friends cousin…whose a senior girl. but ive never really talked to her before and she doesnt know i exist. ive considered suicide before, but im also very athletic and very good at softball volleybal and basketball. i have problems with my family, and dont know WHAT THE FUCK to do anymore. help?
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1. Fuck the bible. Seriously. Move on from it. Some of it can be useful but it has been edited and corrupted beyond recognition and the interpretations you’ve been taught are wrong.
2. There’s a million reasons for suicide. But please do not kill yourself because you’re gay. Please.
3. If your school has a Gay-Straight Alliance, JOIN IT. You don’t have to announce your orientation to anyone but it should surround you with people who can help you.
Anon 13 is right. The bible wasn’t meant to make you feel bad about yourself and has been totally misinterpreted. Don’t feel bad about liking other girls. It’s about HUMAN connections and doesn’t matter whether or not it’s the same sex. It’s about feelings and relating and communicating and loving. Remember one thing. Everything changes and any negative feelings you’re feeling now, you will not be feeling next year or the year after. Embrace your feelings and if you can’t talk to your family, there are plenty of people out here who will be glad to talk to you.
I am a 14 year old gay male.
I too used to be a christian. In fact, my dad got me so “brain-worshiped”, I had to preach to anyone and everyone the gospel of Jesus Christ so everyone could be saved and we’re all a big happy family!
Bullshit, huh.
When I started to find out my feelings toward guys, I went into a depression. It was horrible. My family was always fighting, and I felt like I had no where to turn to. I felt like I was no one, nothing, just a fragement, a little speck of dust in this universe. Horrible. I started to cut myself, I wanted be rebelious. All of my life, my dad tought me how to be a good christian, when at the same time he and his wife fought and argued.
THE WORST time in my life. Horrible. Misery.
And yes, like the person before me said, FUCK the bible.
How could I accept a god when he doesn’t accept me.
I soon realized that I’m in a time in my life where I need to be free, live free, learn from my mistakes, live life on the edge, and to not be someone who sits there and tries to preach to someone to save their own asses, when they are accomplishing nothing.
Please. I know how you feel. I’m not popular. I’m no longer athletic. I gave up on life, and now I have back problems, and I’m not flexible, I cant even run a mile before I start getting cramps.
Keep doing what your doing.
Your the author of your own life,
don’t let anyone take over.
Jacob <3
Contact me if anything get worse. If you think no body cares about you, your wrong. I care.