Hi, my name is Zak and I don’t want to live anymore. I don’t fit in. Nobody respects me. I don’t have any particular talents. I used to think I could sing, but quickly realised that I couldn’t after being “booed” off the stage at a school talent show. Music is my one and only escape, but nobody likes my music (Metal) thinking that it’s “just noise”. Sometimes I come home and cut myself. I constantly lie to my girlfriend so that she doesn’t get worried about me. She knows I’m suicidal. I just think the world would be a lot better if I was gone. Nobody wants me around. A few people have egged me on to kill myself. To date, I’ve attempted to kill myself three times, once using knives and twice by jumping into traffic. I couldn’t do it though. I can’t do anything right, as my own parents say. I don’t blame them for my feelings, however. As far as my parents go, I’d say they’re pretty good. I was raped when I was six by my babysitter’s son. I hardly sleep at night due to the night terrors. I just want a release from life and all the bull that comes with it.
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i know how you feel
i was raped when i was 13 by someone i didn’t know, the only people who know are my boyfriend and my best friends. but it didn’t mak things better. i’ve tried killing myself more than twice, it never worked. i want to give up so badly… but i’m too afraid to do anything
I for one. Havnt been 100% full on raped. But I do know what you mean by how you feel right now. I’m not even sure how many times ive tried. I’m not sure but I think I’m younger than you. I just want to say nomatter how hard it’s getting keep existing for the next day.
I know what you mean about the music. Tht happenes to me multiple times. And it hurts. Becase singing was a way to cope and deal with things. But I found an alternative. Playing music instead of singing. 🙂
I’m not saying to listen to me because technically I’m still stuck down in Those hellish ditches of life. But I just wanted to give my opinion.
Bob Dylan got booed off the stage too…..
You are enough. No matter what anyone else tells you or how anyone else makes you feel, you will always be enough for this world.
You got booed off the stage.. so what? That’s when you should sing your music louder.
You are a soul, you are so loved. Please don’t throw that away. There is a purpose for you in this life.
I want to get to know you. Please message me.
Stranger, I love you.