Hi im 14,
I stare out my window everyday just see the a new day come. At school im popular and happy to everyone but smiling is just a mask to hide all the depression i have.
ive had 5 to 6 sucide attempts my parents dont know ,my friends dont know .Only 2 people know and thats my BF and my boyfriend (who is trying to “save” me from death) ive lost the touch of ralitiy
My mom was the only parent who was really there to raise me. my biological father left me for alchohol when i was only 3 years old my other father didnt really care much for me at all aslong as i stayed pretty and skinny so he can show all of his friends how great of a daughter i was.My mom is abusesive though since i was 5 years old she hits me and slaps me and calls me “worthless” and “dumbass of the family” i’ve learned to stop caring for her in her time of need
my second grade teacher died when i was 8 i think thats what triggered my “sucidal thoughts”
ive been to alot of school counselors since i was 7 years old all of them talk just the same all of them are so easy to fool too…Whats wrong with going to a real Counsoler instead of a school one who just tells you “everything will be okay” like your a baby thats the way they treat me as?.
My parents are diforced (im not sad about that) and i’ve been cutting my left arm and wrist for 2 years now
There alot of diffrent stories from all of you and i must say that sadness is quite hurtful to ones everyday life
Anyways got any advice for me?
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I know I sound like a person your gonna think is ignorent, but remember were only 14, we’ll be able to be on our own and create ourselves soon. We only have to deal wtih parents and stuff like that for a little longer. Then we create our own paths , and we will be responsible for our actions. Hang in there. Your innocent. Many of us fail to realize this but we are innocent. You didnt ask for what you have to live. BUt soon you will be in charge of your own destiny.
No i dont think you sound ignorent and thank you for leaving that comment..You are right we are all innocent
You mentioned something about fooling councelors, could you elaborate on that? Have you only gone to school councelors? In my experience they can only do so much, but seeing a personal councelor or therapist on a regular basis can help quite a bit.
You might want to ask a teacher or someone you trust about what options are available to you so you can get the help you need to feel better.
Hello.
The counselors in all my schools ive gone to never really seem to not help much i can give them points for trying but with that then nothing.
My parents wont take me to go to a normal therpaist
Ive asked friends and they all soppurted me on continue to live
The thing is School Concelors just dont seem to help me much it just makes people stare at you and think that your totally insane which is not the case.
thank you for the comment