Everyday I endure this pain
The pain of these haunting memories;
I remember the day it started;
All this chaos in my head
This chaos that makes me wish I were dead;
I put on a fake smile throughout every day
All because I hate attention,
I hate affection,
I hate when people care, for me;
I wish I could just end it all
No more pain, no more tears, no more blood, no more fears;
I want to be happy, all alone in the sky
But I think the only way to achieve this, is to die.
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I totally agree, as that’s exactly how i feel. The thought that I can end it all when things get too bad at a time, place and manner of my own choosing is to be honest quite comforting and helps me cope for the time being…
this so-called “real-world” is too dull and uninspiring and even obnoxious to my super vivid imaginations and dreams.
This world is amazing, beautiful, stunning, shocking, jaw dropping and awe inspiring if you mean the natural world. I mean even in all of its tooth and claw starkness there’s a certain untainted, unmolested purity in it. But for all of our genius, creativity, brilliance and intelligence we humans and the blood, oil and chemical soaked world we’ve created seems to thrive more on bigotry, hatred and intolerance, fear, conformity and ignorance and greed, vanity and selfishness, destructiveness, ideology and superstition…
But even dreams and imagination aren’t an escape for me anymore…
The best way is to not give up! There are too many giver uppers in this world! You need to grab onto life get out and adventure even on your own, go out into the wild and explore on your own if you get lost and bitten by a poisonous snake I’d say thats a better way to die than to just kill yourself with everyone else around you breaking and remembering you as the giver upper. You may feel this way now but you need to strike out, reach out for the good in life and hold fast to it you will find the light will start to brighten in your soul. Be safe
Sapphire x
Hey. Just the things of this world are not worth it, but living for God’s glory is worth it all. I hope these words can be of comfort to you today 🙂 Have hope in God. Watch this clip!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qx2-Inc8TkA