Just a note this is not why i am suicidal but it’s just something that i haven’t told many people and it has bothered me for a really long time.
My mom and her partner (i say partner because she is a woman also) had an std apparently, this was back when i was a teenager i am 23 now but i only found out that i had an std awhile ago after seeing numerous doctors for years and them only seeing inflamed urination.
It turns out that my mother or her partner had an std when i was about 15-16 and we had shared the same bathroom which i got infected in,(how bad luck is that? first doctors said it was very unlikely that i catch an std that way (I caught it off the inner side part of the toilet.) they said it was less than 1% chance, and my luck is just that horrible trust me thats not even my worst luck.
Also i was not sexually active and this was the only way i could catch it i’m positive.
I confronted my mother a year or so later about it and she says she is sure that her and her partner never had anything (this was back before the doctor actually found i had an std) and she actually suggested that it was because i was circumcised that i had burning urination, wtf?.
So Parents if you had an std and knew you had been infected and not treated yet, wouldn’t you make sure to clean the bathroom if you had your children using it?
Also what kind of parent lets their child go around with an std and tries to cover it up and lie about it?! what sort of peice of shit would do that as a fucking parent!
Also that would mean that one of them was cheating since you probablly cant catch an std from being a loyal loving couple.
Sometimes i still feel like killing my mother because of that (i wouldnt but i feel like it,) I hated gay people for a long time because of that, i dont anymore.
Anyways sorry this wasn’t well put together and i hope it made sense if you can understand how bad my luck is.. lol. I just needed to vent i have had that weighing on my shoulders for a long time.
There are a few other posts i will do about myself before i leave this planet so maybe someday someone who knew me could find this and learn the truth about me.
I have had a very dark and trouble life and i don’t think many people CAN actually relate to most of the stuff i’ve gone through… but maybe you will find my posts interesting on how different (or fucked up) our lives can actually be.
Anyways thanks for listening
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Caleb87,
The chance of STD catching up that you mentioned I’d say it’s 40 %.
Some stubborn STD warts virus, if to be left behind in a pool of water on the ground, and if someone with soft skin after sweating his feet in socks and shoes all day (usually male), and to stand in this pool of water long enough as in taking a shower, the chance of being infected even through the skin is very high.
Some may have warts growing on the sole, some may have recovered in time but virus still inside his body without knowing and transfered throughout to his body as arthritis, these artichoke or cauliflower like in shape of virus may mutate and are always mistaken as the crystallines caused in arthritis.
And without knowingly of being a carrier, the children born after this, may have all kinds of difficulties, vas deferens or testicles fail to form or retracted inside body.
And not to say the wife may develop problem in uterus in latter section of life.
It’s really sad to see western medicine so falling behind, but obsessing so many people with misery.
Such as prostate gland infection causing intermittent urinating as happened in old man, just one day of herb treatment is usually enough to channel the flow smoothly and even stop the blood color occuring in urine.
Stubborn STD that perplex, torment and can obsess people for years, to me it’s just a bittery laugh to the ignorance in medical science. Three weeks time of herb treatment can cure, and the time allowed is not for infection alone, but for eliminating the poisons and waste one stored inside his body making him weak to have acquired this disease.
Removals of so many prostate glands in men and uteruses in women,
are those silly so-called technology turning them to victims.
Looking ahead without looking at the sides, without a broad sense, is the problem.
Your right fireflies. the medical industry is behind by choice they are more concerned with making money and ‘treating’ an illness instead of actually curing it .
The Std by the way was actually gonoreah(dunno if i spelled that right) which IS curable and is why it pissed me off about my parents lying.
No no no dude dont kill yourself, thats not the answer. Talk it out with your mother and tell her why she lied. Don’t just go agree with her. Talk it out.
I appreciate that, but that’s not why i want to die, it was just something i had to get off my chest, as for my mother she is too deceptive and manipulative to be treated like a real person,
anybody that cares that little about their child and covers it up to protect themselves does not deserve a good relationship with their child.
Your mom does need some kind of feedback from you though about this. You can’t let her go on thinking that she did nothing wrong. I would say make her sorry, but that sounds incredibly mean. It’s usually not worth it to fight fire with fire. Dude. That really sucks though. If you are still alive and somehow get to reading this, I wanna know how you’re doin. Just cuz. Take care.