For the past 5 years of my life i have been suicidal and a self-harmer. It seems that my family and friends have all given up on me. I know they are just waiting for that day that they will have to go to my funeral. So why should i not just give them what they want? Recently i have stopped eating and have had horrible stomach and nausea problems, its not that i dont want to eat its just that my body doesnt want it. I havent been depressed for a while but i know where this is all leading. No one wants to talk to me anymore and i feel as if i am truly alone and i am just wasting their time. I try my haardest just to stay happy but it all comes back to this, I dont know what to do anymore.