i have to go to therapy on the 22nd of this month. my parents know i’m upset. they just don’t really know how upset i am. i’m slowly slipping away from my boyfriend. it seems better this way. he doesnt know i’m still gonna kill myself. he doesnt know a lot about me. i’m glad nobody really knows me. except my best friend. he knows me better than anyone. i’m not telling him anything. i always get these stupid fucking lectures about how suicide is bad, but it’s probably a hell of a lot better than where i’m at now. if anyone knows, tel me if there’s a less painful way to die besides drowning.