hi,
im currently in high school and am suicidal. i am like my user name suggests at the end of wits. i am currently failing the simplest of classes like scuplutre and have cut myself on purporse and on accident. i have had not only the upper class man talk about how much i suck at the sport i play and how i over due myself and say im good when i clearly never say im good. im torn for a girl which i thought would be the one and was my first true love. after she broke up with me about after trying for a long time now to get back together. when she first broke up she told me she dosent know her feelings later dating a guy. 2 weeks later were making out and doing some sexual stuff when she suddenly back stabs me. we come through the problem and its my b-day she decides that the best present to give is not sex but a broken heart. she breaks it again. my family life i horrible i swear at my mom and call her a ***** constantly. my dad is in some far off land making money for the family and when i need him the most he’s gone. i also think im a little of a drama king. i have been sucicdal since i
was about 6 years old im now 14. and the main problem is when i try to get help it back fires and makes it all worse for me. i constaly look at every object near me and think how can i kill myself with this. again im at the end of my wits
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Being my stupid me I have forgotten important details. I have made my family a living hell and made my brother sucidial by accident due to my over depression. I missed out on my moms b-day because i was to busy being depressed. I have also made my ex(mentioned above) sucidical. I’m feel like everything bad that has happened to my ex and to my family is caused by me and there all better off without me. I have been to 5 different consoulers with no improvement. I have ADD+ODHD hysteria(family diagnosed) GERD and depression. To me I feel like I’m just a fucked up little kid with no future. I can’t finish any homework and can’t finsih anything I started. I’m not religious at all but I have talked to the pastor of the crurch my family goes to. And I just can’t see me living. During the summer I didn’t see me going to high school I always thought i would kill myself before I reached it. Just everything is falling apart bit by bit. Ik that my story isn’t one of great importance nor of great curosity. And I’ll probably add more later but I forget cause I’m a dumb fuck
You are not dumb. or any of the other names you have listed above… you are human, and it sounds like a strong, smart human that is just a little lost right now. This gets easier. Life gets easier. It sounds like you don’t like cursing at your mom, and upsetting your brother.
Let’s talk about this more. I will not call you name… I will not tell you there is A THING wrong with you. God made you the way you are!
email me.. mrslindseylambert@gmail.com
I’m not sure how you made your girlfriend suicidal when she clearly fucked you over. Mind explaining that?
You clearly aren’t a dumb fuck for seeking help. If one needs help, one finds help. Not a dumb thought, at all.
I suggest you take your broken heart and mend it yourself. Only way to help mend (one can never truly fix a broken heart) a broken heart, is to help yourself. I’ve been there with a broken heart. I cried my tears. I hurt when I was hurt. I picked myself back up and came back even stronger then when I went down.
I’m here. Not perfect. But still here. Strong. You can do the same.
Her dad beats her and when she broke it off she cut herself cause she hated herself 4 doing that.